What's the thing you most regret NOT saying?
I was a very deliberate human being, and I was very outspoken. People noticed right off the bat, and it often made making friends a bit difficult. I didn't care at the time. The friends I had were valued, and they valued me in return. I was often the person others turned to when they wanted somebody to confide in, and I liked that about me.
When I was in love, I would tell her. When I wanted somebody, I would tell her too. When I thought somebody was being an jerk, I'd be at the head of the line of people waiting to tell him while all the others were still trying to yank a number from the ticket-machine.
Sadly, all of this changed after I was converted. I obeyed without question and followed the other troops without hesitation. I look back on 98% of that and fantasize about all the things I wish I had said when the opportunity presented itself.
You know; things like "Shoot them yourself." and "I have an idea, how about no?". I also think about the colony I got taken from and think back to all the things I wish I had said just before we surrendered, like "Get your head down moron!", "Stop walking toward them!", and "Somebody shoot me.".
I've been in the process of correcting that since my humanity resurfaced. It'll probably be a while before any of the colonists feel comfortable confiding in me and sharing their lives (they have to feel comfortable talking to me first I imagine), but nobody can tell me I've been afraid to say what I'm thinking.
The colony magistrate would agree with me. I'm pretty sure he already wants me dead. The line for him wasn't very long at all.