Updates and venting. I am getting there. May require a few more emo posts.
Life? Getting there. :) Things are moving forward and I feel like I can go where I want without reporting to someone. GOOD feeling that. :)
Spent a painful day "with Ian" (I agreed to it because I felt sorry for him and yea, wanted a nice goodbye.) He woke up late and got very upset because he had wasted most of the day. After he calmed down, we watched the Batman/Superman Public Enemies. GL: First Flight was a lot better but I really enjoyed Capt. Marvel's appearance. :D Soon after it escalated again. /sarcasm/ So that was fun. /sarcasm/
Tim's Birthday was on the weekend and after my Molly Star Racer vinyl got broken acting as a place-holder (you know who you are! *grumble* *grumble*) for the one I got Tim, I gave out loot bags to the party goers. A special guest appearance was made by James (James of AAS fame, not the James I mentioned was off touring with a punk band) who I never see enough of!
I also have been spoiled with a Kingdom Come Superman T-shirt which is really wicked. :D
Things to come: A date to see Evangelion 0.1 You are (Not) Alone this Saturday @ 10 am (some may be interested). Sigh. Reminds me of good old days gone by. It was an excellent series and the fact that they are "remixing" the entire series should be a testament to the impact the show had even if the end was a little weird (The scene where Shinji masturbates over Asuka in the hospital is one I will never forget. Why was that even there? O_o). I will try to look past the dubbing. Try as I might, I am still a purist and a snob about dubs vs. subs. Hopefully it will end with the traditional "Fly me to the Moon."
As for the move, it is done. Thankfully. I was getting sharp chest pains that are now gone. I am still a little spooked when I am at home or when he contacts me. I can still smell the stench of him but the house already is loosing the cigarette and pot smell he baptized the house with. I am still very angry at him and have to/can start to let it go. The 3 month break-up is finally over. Sort of...
He thought it would be cute to send me a song about heartbreak the day after he moved out ("Skinny Love" by Bon Iver) so I am responding here with a song that reminds me of him (it's therapeutic). Reminds me of him lying about the women and the most obvious, him trying to excuse choking me.
I am not one to post lyrics but this song reminds me of my relationship with him for very literal reasons. There is really no interpretation needed.
The phone rings, it's early, it's seven o'clock.
He says sorry I woke you, but I just had to talk
You know last night, remember when I tried to choke you?
I didn't mean it, I was drunk, it was only a joke.
You should know that by now,
when the checkered flag comes down,
no one no one no one has won the race.
The next night he's over and over and under
and after he's finished she lies there and wonders
just why does she need him and why does she stay here
and then in the darkness she'll quietly say Dear,
you've never really known that when the white flag is flown,
no one no one no one has won the war.
They're complicated people
leading complicated lives,
and he complicates their problems
by telling complicated lies
He tells her he's sorry, she tells him it's over,
he tells her he's sorry, she says over and over
You've never really known that when the white flag is flown,
no one no one no one has won the war.
Honestly, more of you cared than I thought would and I thank EVERYONE who has been patient with me and had kind words. You have come out of the woodwork and are much appreciated. I know I was an idiot (knew/said going into it that I was) and I thank you for being there for me even if I didn't really deserve it.
Spent a painful day "with Ian" (I agreed to it because I felt sorry for him and yea, wanted a nice goodbye.) He woke up late and got very upset because he had wasted most of the day. After he calmed down, we watched the Batman/Superman Public Enemies. GL: First Flight was a lot better but I really enjoyed Capt. Marvel's appearance. :D Soon after it escalated again. /sarcasm/ So that was fun. /sarcasm/
Tim's Birthday was on the weekend and after my Molly Star Racer vinyl got broken acting as a place-holder (you know who you are! *grumble* *grumble*) for the one I got Tim, I gave out loot bags to the party goers. A special guest appearance was made by James (James of AAS fame, not the James I mentioned was off touring with a punk band) who I never see enough of!
I also have been spoiled with a Kingdom Come Superman T-shirt which is really wicked. :D
Things to come: A date to see Evangelion 0.1 You are (Not) Alone this Saturday @ 10 am (some may be interested). Sigh. Reminds me of good old days gone by. It was an excellent series and the fact that they are "remixing" the entire series should be a testament to the impact the show had even if the end was a little weird (The scene where Shinji masturbates over Asuka in the hospital is one I will never forget. Why was that even there? O_o). I will try to look past the dubbing. Try as I might, I am still a purist and a snob about dubs vs. subs. Hopefully it will end with the traditional "Fly me to the Moon."
As for the move, it is done. Thankfully. I was getting sharp chest pains that are now gone. I am still a little spooked when I am at home or when he contacts me. I can still smell the stench of him but the house already is loosing the cigarette and pot smell he baptized the house with. I am still very angry at him and have to/can start to let it go. The 3 month break-up is finally over. Sort of...
He thought it would be cute to send me a song about heartbreak the day after he moved out ("Skinny Love" by Bon Iver) so I am responding here with a song that reminds me of him (it's therapeutic). Reminds me of him lying about the women and the most obvious, him trying to excuse choking me.
I am not one to post lyrics but this song reminds me of my relationship with him for very literal reasons. There is really no interpretation needed.
The phone rings, it's early, it's seven o'clock.
He says sorry I woke you, but I just had to talk
You know last night, remember when I tried to choke you?
I didn't mean it, I was drunk, it was only a joke.
You should know that by now,
when the checkered flag comes down,
no one no one no one has won the race.
The next night he's over and over and under
and after he's finished she lies there and wonders
just why does she need him and why does she stay here
and then in the darkness she'll quietly say Dear,
you've never really known that when the white flag is flown,
no one no one no one has won the war.
They're complicated people
leading complicated lives,
and he complicates their problems
by telling complicated lies
He tells her he's sorry, she tells him it's over,
he tells her he's sorry, she says over and over
You've never really known that when the white flag is flown,
no one no one no one has won the war.
Honestly, more of you cared than I thought would and I thank EVERYONE who has been patient with me and had kind words. You have come out of the woodwork and are much appreciated. I know I was an idiot (knew/said going into it that I was) and I thank you for being there for me even if I didn't really deserve it.