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I started a new online journal and I don't think its working.
I feel angst-y and restless today. It doesn't help that I have school later, or that someone is coming to visit in a few hours, making me feel like maybe I should change out of my pajamas and wipe down the kitchen counter. But I don't have the energy for that.
Where do people find all of their energy? Seriously. I hate doing that comparison game, but I look at the 10-hour-requirement I need a night and wonder where my reserves are. I couldn't work on wall street because of my lack of energy, whether or not I had the intelligence or ability to be CEO.
Sometimes I think I should work out more. But then I think, well that's not realistic.
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Today is rainy, which I usually love, but for some reason feels ominous today.
I think its my lack of structure. Or, of truly despising the work I am currently doing.
I feel angst-y and restless today. It doesn't help that I have school later, or that someone is coming to visit in a few hours, making me feel like maybe I should change out of my pajamas and wipe down the kitchen counter. But I don't have the energy for that.
Where do people find all of their energy? Seriously. I hate doing that comparison game, but I look at the 10-hour-requirement I need a night and wonder where my reserves are. I couldn't work on wall street because of my lack of energy, whether or not I had the intelligence or ability to be CEO.
Sometimes I think I should work out more. But then I think, well that's not realistic.
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Today is rainy, which I usually love, but for some reason feels ominous today.
I think its my lack of structure. Or, of truly despising the work I am currently doing.