time to buckle down
How do I begin to reconcile what I want and what I have?
What I want:
- A decent grade point average.
- To be accepted into Public Health School with a tuition stipend.
- To be financially independent, and to start saving money toward buying a house.
- To be able to run a half-marathon (13 miles) by February.
- A stable, non-sociopathic relationship with a male in my age range near my position in life (who stands to inherit tons of money, jk)
What I have:
- only 24 hours in each day
Conclusion:
- I deserve great grades, therefore I must put in great effort.
- I need to be healthy, therefore I need to push my body.
- I want to go to graduate school, so I must begin filling out my applications (and paying for them).
- I need to save money, so I need to apply for decent-paying jobs that work with my schedule and to stop spending money unnecessarily.
- I need to stop looking for a relationship, because there is no way that "stable" can be in the same context as "I only have a few months left at this school."
Where's the time for friends? The time for relaxation? The time for lounging in the park with a nice book? The time for coffee? The time to walk around Magazine St?
Where's the time for anything?
Jeez, I miss this summer so much. It was the happiest time of my life.
Why must I sacrifice my happiness in order to be satisfied with myself?
What I want:
- A decent grade point average.
- To be accepted into Public Health School with a tuition stipend.
- To be financially independent, and to start saving money toward buying a house.
- To be able to run a half-marathon (13 miles) by February.
- A stable, non-sociopathic relationship with a male in my age range near my position in life (who stands to inherit tons of money, jk)
What I have:
- only 24 hours in each day
Conclusion:
- I deserve great grades, therefore I must put in great effort.
- I need to be healthy, therefore I need to push my body.
- I want to go to graduate school, so I must begin filling out my applications (and paying for them).
- I need to save money, so I need to apply for decent-paying jobs that work with my schedule and to stop spending money unnecessarily.
- I need to stop looking for a relationship, because there is no way that "stable" can be in the same context as "I only have a few months left at this school."
Where's the time for friends? The time for relaxation? The time for lounging in the park with a nice book? The time for coffee? The time to walk around Magazine St?
Where's the time for anything?
Jeez, I miss this summer so much. It was the happiest time of my life.
Why must I sacrifice my happiness in order to be satisfied with myself?