thank you kansas
once again i almost forgot the importance of having a nonobjective opinion is. i've been so completely stressed out about my whole situation with no one really to talk to about it. i have made a few friends out here but i don't really have any with the same bond as the ones that i have back home... at least not as of right now. i don't know how he and i really got to this point... maybe it was the night that he took care of me when i was drunk... anyhow. after i left ryan's house tonight (it was his birthday) i need to talk to someone that would know where i was coming from and could give me the positive advice and reinforcement that i needed, so i called him. yes, i could have talked to amie or laura but they both want me to come home and would have probably given me some skewed advice. i was really bummed about not having the chance to see kansas during my trip back home or having the chance to catch up with him. for some reason, he always knows what i'm going through and exactly what it is i need to here to nudge me in the right direction. he's amazing, he's wise, he's loving and positive... too bad he's gay, he would be perfect!! anyway, he made me realize that i need to let the dust settle and take my time with everything. he made me realize how far i've come and all i can do now is go forward. he showed me that i'm not being over analytical about my situation, that i am being mature and that i have shown myself that i need to take a step back to allow god to do what he wants in my life. and for that i thank him and love him.
~ k
~ k