the elephant in the room
so i've decided that i should probably tell him how i feel... i'm just not sure how to do it. everytime with him i want to blurt it out... i'm just way to scared. at 727 tonight things were kind of awkward between us. we didn't really say much to eachother... i didn't really even get a decent hug out of him. i don't really know what to do about it. i really just want to put it out there, so that it is known and so that i can determine whether or not i should make a move or not. it's really weird. maybe i was completely wrong and he doesn't have feelings for me. i don't know. wednesday is his birthday, he's gonna have people over and we're probably gonna drink. i figure i may let it "slip" and if i am way off, i'll blame it on the alcohol.... sad but it's the only way that i think i can do this without being completely weird about it. we'll see i guess.