I was doing so well. My moods shifted so suddenly it is concerning. Surely I am just tired and stressed. But I'm back to feeling numb. I've purged three times. Maybe its end of the semester stress. Still that is no excuse. I'm not worried just yet, only if it starts creeping up more. Joey taught creative writing tonight and sat next to me. His ( Read more... )

hi. i haven't updated in forever on this thing ( Read more... )

Two days ago Kati messaged me and told me that Marshall was having a show in Tennessee and the three of us should get together. I told her I would try to see what I could do. By God I was able to get off work and get down there with Erica. It was so good to see them again, and really it was the four of us the entire night. He dedicated Getting ( Read more... )

"When you're dead, you're dead. What is it going to take for you to hit rock bottom ( Read more... )

today, matt hartley and i sat down over coffee and had our first real talk, just the two of us. i was already there reading for class and he stopped by to stay with emily while she finished up her shift. it's been a good two months since i've seen him, and yesterday at church he picked me up and spun me around and we laughed and i told him he was ( Read more... )

i dont even know where to start. i had my first workshop in kellys class, and goodness, it was intense. i know i need work, and i know i'm too hard on myself, and the comments wern't bad or too harsh my any means, but i immediately closed up on myself and checked out. i feel like everything has to be perfect, that i should already know how to do ( Read more... )

everything is a blur and moving too fast. my mouth is sewn shut.

Kristin, you are so kind. Thank you, and you're welcome! What dates are you coming? And where are you staying? You are welcome to stay with me for a night or two if you need! Kristin, it means so much to me that you are praying for me. I cannot tell you how much I value that ( Read more... )

Ivory told me I looked like id lost weight. She told me her heart sank when she saw me because she knew how I’d been losing it. I asked her if I looked bad. She said sort of. Not too horribly gross, but unwell. She asked me how much I thought I’d lost. I told her I wasn’t sure. I said I wasn’t sure how much I weigh. She said I looked like I was in ( Read more... )

i switched to a full vegetarian diet ( Read more... )