Merry Christmas =)
I am at the grandparents house =)
Cory went to his Christmas thing with his parents and I am real worried something is going to cause him to be depressed when he come back home, I hope that isn't the case. Christmas wasn't Christmas this year.
Heather gave my dad the pictures of his mom (he watched his mom die when he was 7, and he never saw any pictures or anything of her ever again because my Step-grandma burned them) So Heather had a dream one night about it, and she found some of her and I edited and lightend them for her and she put them all in an album, it was probably the saddest thing I have ever seen when he looked at those pictures.
I found out Erin is going out with Micheal McCord, and that she is real happy with him. I feel a little guilty saying what I said previously-because it was just me being stupid and jealous over something I know nothing about.
I get like that, a character flaw, definatley. I don't know if the best thing for me to do is stay away from him, or go around him, because Morgan said he is all like..."DOG DOG DOG" and that annoys me, so I was thinking maybe he could just annoy all the feeling out of me? It's possible, but if that doesn't happend I don't know what the hell I am going to do. I guess just deal with it and get over myself. I am the epitome of pathetic and I hate it. Maybe I will just play it how I planned on. Everything happens for a reason. I don't want to be with anyone else, and I know that.
By the way, I hate this fucking snow.
I lied when I said I was ready for it, it sucks. I have to work today from 6-10 and now I have to go home and go to bed. I got an artists kit for Christmas which makes me kind of happy, so I have oil pastels and pencils and all that jazz. Now I can start sketching again, that raises the spirits a bit.
I can feel myself slightly slipping into some kind of ... physical depression, I like think I am ugly now and no matter what I keep doing I always think I look like shit.
I miss my sisters a whole freaking bunch. I miss them a whole whole whole lot and I want them to come back. =-(.
My aunt Connie just ran her SUV into my parents car and knocked off the bumper.
Merry Christmas.......
Cory went to his Christmas thing with his parents and I am real worried something is going to cause him to be depressed when he come back home, I hope that isn't the case. Christmas wasn't Christmas this year.
Heather gave my dad the pictures of his mom (he watched his mom die when he was 7, and he never saw any pictures or anything of her ever again because my Step-grandma burned them) So Heather had a dream one night about it, and she found some of her and I edited and lightend them for her and she put them all in an album, it was probably the saddest thing I have ever seen when he looked at those pictures.
I found out Erin is going out with Micheal McCord, and that she is real happy with him. I feel a little guilty saying what I said previously-because it was just me being stupid and jealous over something I know nothing about.
I get like that, a character flaw, definatley. I don't know if the best thing for me to do is stay away from him, or go around him, because Morgan said he is all like..."DOG DOG DOG" and that annoys me, so I was thinking maybe he could just annoy all the feeling out of me? It's possible, but if that doesn't happend I don't know what the hell I am going to do. I guess just deal with it and get over myself. I am the epitome of pathetic and I hate it. Maybe I will just play it how I planned on. Everything happens for a reason. I don't want to be with anyone else, and I know that.
By the way, I hate this fucking snow.
I lied when I said I was ready for it, it sucks. I have to work today from 6-10 and now I have to go home and go to bed. I got an artists kit for Christmas which makes me kind of happy, so I have oil pastels and pencils and all that jazz. Now I can start sketching again, that raises the spirits a bit.
I can feel myself slightly slipping into some kind of ... physical depression, I like think I am ugly now and no matter what I keep doing I always think I look like shit.
I miss my sisters a whole freaking bunch. I miss them a whole whole whole lot and I want them to come back. =-(.
My aunt Connie just ran her SUV into my parents car and knocked off the bumper.
Merry Christmas.......