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i'm freaking out... why you might ask... I DON'T KNOW!!!!
this is a very wierd feeling, this feeling of anxiety that is accompanying my day today. i woke up on the wrong side of the bed and it's been downhill from there. daniel is here, flirting with me, which of course i do not condone, and i think i may have a crush on someone that i'm either not admitting to myself or it just isn't true... either way i wish it would just go away so i can be happy go lucky again... i think it's because i drank alchohol... i need to not drink... i can see why it's addicting because i hadn't drank in months and felt no need to, but for whatever reason i did last night and although i thought i had a good night, guess who woke up angry and bitter this morning...
i don't but i do want a man in my life... and it's driving me crazy... all everyone around me can talk about is relationships and i hate it and want it to stop...
wish me luck tonight, i'm so nervous i might puke. i'm feeling quite awful towards daniel and although he is a nice guy i just don't like him like that and now i find out he had a crush on me in auckland and he never told me and he always looks at me with those "you are so adorable" eyes which i wish he would turn on someone else... anyway i'm going to go be miserable around people so i feel social but i wish i felt better... and i don't know where this unhappy mood swing is coming from but it feels like auckland is catching up to me all of a sudden...
make me sane!
this is a very wierd feeling, this feeling of anxiety that is accompanying my day today. i woke up on the wrong side of the bed and it's been downhill from there. daniel is here, flirting with me, which of course i do not condone, and i think i may have a crush on someone that i'm either not admitting to myself or it just isn't true... either way i wish it would just go away so i can be happy go lucky again... i think it's because i drank alchohol... i need to not drink... i can see why it's addicting because i hadn't drank in months and felt no need to, but for whatever reason i did last night and although i thought i had a good night, guess who woke up angry and bitter this morning...
i don't but i do want a man in my life... and it's driving me crazy... all everyone around me can talk about is relationships and i hate it and want it to stop...
wish me luck tonight, i'm so nervous i might puke. i'm feeling quite awful towards daniel and although he is a nice guy i just don't like him like that and now i find out he had a crush on me in auckland and he never told me and he always looks at me with those "you are so adorable" eyes which i wish he would turn on someone else... anyway i'm going to go be miserable around people so i feel social but i wish i felt better... and i don't know where this unhappy mood swing is coming from but it feels like auckland is catching up to me all of a sudden...
make me sane!