i need to pee ... and there's a loooong entry ahead =/
::yawn:: its been a most tiresome day. and i havent even been doing anything!!
last night practice went till 1 ... in the morning. oh my lordy ... ive never stayed out that late for practice. and we started at like 8 or something. it was still a really fun practice though .. lots of laughs. it was really chill, and i love it when practice is like that cuz it just makes it easier for me to work on my character. if one thing doesnt work, i can try it in a totally different way ... without it being scrutinized. [hope i used that correctly]
according to "them" practice is gonna be like that allll the way until PCN. thats TWO WEEKS of late-night practices. it should have only been ONE week, but since of the prologue/epilogue people cant make it to practice this saturday, we have to make up for it next week. so much for "heaven week." but its okay ... because because i really love what im doing, and i want to do really well. performing is always fun!! no matter how good or bad it is. i mean sure .. you never really wanna remember bad ones, but those times give rise to even better performances the next time. its been a couple years since ive been in the limelight .. and i cant wait!! it would really mean a lot to me if anyone out there could gO. call or leave a comment if ya can ... [i'll drop the info at the end] 0=)
back to the story! ohh did i mention that practice usually ends at 12?? haha only an hour difference, so i dont know what im complaining about!! but oh well! =P after that ... i meant to shower and go straight to bed, but on my way in i ran into sabrina and hulbert. sabrina went on in, so that hulbert and i could 'converse.' negotiated a priCE for his math book [which was quite a deal!] and talked to him about sabrina and their anniversary. theyre soo cute .. and im so happy for them! 6 months. yay!! =) [note: sabrina, if your reading this, and you wanna know what else we talked about drop by the room! haha or lets get lunch! yay! k byee!]
haha anyway ... ended up doing a lotta talking to melody [and more to hulbert] online. actually, i think i did most of the talking, and i still feel really bad for having to put them through that, but they were nice about it, and i cant thank them enough! it was mostly about charlie but i just have to talk about it once and a while. just to get another perspective on things. it really helps ... i mean, the advice and support and all ... keeps me from getting overly emotional. well, i get emotional while telling it, but i feel its best to get it out when i can, so that when i need to work or do what i have to do, i can do it with a clear head, ya know? for the few people i havent filled in, im so very sorry .. its been really hectic trying to get all my classes straightened out and what not. but in a nutshell ... things arent how they used to be. we're on a "break" or as i see it, broken-up, which is okay, because its best for the both of us, but its still really hard. =') i suppose i should expand on that ... but not now .. im not having an 'emotional' day heheh
now where was i? ... oh yes, by the time all that was over, it was like 3-something. took a shower, and when i got out it was 4:20. waited for my hair to dry .. then finally went to bed at 5-something!
i expected to be up at 8, to help hulbert in his "plan" but that changed, so i got a couple extra hours of sleep until 9:30. had class from 10-11, well no ... we got out like 20 min early .. so then yeah .. went to the room and got my things ready to go home. i was gonna go upstairs to see charlie to say "hi" and "good luck" and stuff .. but that didnt really work out. ::shrugs::
my dad picked me up a little after 12. riding with him is always intersting. the things we talk about and stuff. usually school ... and oddly enough, i was the one who started it. we had a lot of trouble talking about school fall quarter, so this time, to avoid all that, i gave him the breakdown of what happened this quarter. not too detailed, but straight-forward enough. i tried to tell him that certain things were off and that i still havent found out what "works" for me. he argued like he always does and like i expected him to, but he didnt get mad. and that made me soooo .. i dont know. happy? relieved? he was giving me the same advice that he usually does, but it just seemed a little clearer this time around. id always understood it before, but it really hit me. maybe it was the fact that he expressed so much belief in me. i hate it when he does that .. it makes me wanna cry. happy tears, of course. =') its things like that that make me feel like the worst person in the world when i dont meet certain expectations. but its also my motivation for next time around. this is gonna be the quarter everything changes. my dad told me so many other things ... and im seriously more motivated. i was before, but hearing him tell me that ... it meant the WORLD to me. and all this while we were having this insanely mature and intellectual discussion. ::sigh:: and if what he tells me is true, then maybe ... just maybe .. ill have even more to look forward to.
got back a little before 2. he bought me lunch at jack in the box. i really shouldnt be eating fast food ... but its been a while, and i didnt wanna be picky. =P the next time i talk to my dad, it would be cool to talk about guys. i think we have before, but it was always the same thing 'school first and dont get pregnant.' and now that i think about it .. that sort of made its way into the conversation today. eh. but thats not important ... point is, i just really wanna be able to talk to him about more things. i guess boys are a little much, and i should be talking to my mom, but she's not a big fan of the idea either. oh well ...
picked up the brother and sister. and ended up taking a loooooong nap to make up for the lack of sleep. its actually been like that for the last few days. i cant help staying up late. at least i get up for class! =)
turns out while i was sleeping, dad went to barnes and noble without me. and after i explicitly told him that i needed to buy a book. sheesh. that silly guy. bunch of people called me during my nap tOo ... hahah it made me feel special. =) chris called!! that was the first one. i was really surprised. then anna called [im soo sorry i we didnt go out!!]. then manong anthony. and leander called too! i felt so bad for choosing sleep over talking, but i noticed bags under my eyes this morning, and i didnt wanna make it worse. besides, how often do i chose rest over people?
woke up to my brother shaking me to go to dinner. as my brother said, it was "another Kodak moment." and it was. gotta soak up those moments while i can. we're not gonna be able to do this forever. and after dinner i watched tv for like 2 hours. first hour "what i like about you" which isnt bad. and second hour "top model." and oh my gosh!!! i dont know if anyone remembers, but yeah .. remember that beauty pageant i was in a couple of years back?? the "miss carson" thing? =P one of the girls (who also happened to be a finalist) was on the show!! i thought that was pretty cool. i called my mom to watch and everything. hahha im so retarded. turns out the show was a rerun anyway. thanks for killing the mood mom! jk =P
but yes ... so here i am now with this MAJOR update. i really didnt expect it to be this long .. but with all the commentary inbetween .. well ... oops. 0=) luckily, i dont need to pee anymore. hahah okay. hope y'all enjoyed that. be back tomorrow. or sunday. FOR SERIOUS.
♥♥ kristina_marie ♥♥
last night practice went till 1 ... in the morning. oh my lordy ... ive never stayed out that late for practice. and we started at like 8 or something. it was still a really fun practice though .. lots of laughs. it was really chill, and i love it when practice is like that cuz it just makes it easier for me to work on my character. if one thing doesnt work, i can try it in a totally different way ... without it being scrutinized. [hope i used that correctly]
according to "them" practice is gonna be like that allll the way until PCN. thats TWO WEEKS of late-night practices. it should have only been ONE week, but since of the prologue/epilogue people cant make it to practice this saturday, we have to make up for it next week. so much for "heaven week." but its okay ... because because i really love what im doing, and i want to do really well. performing is always fun!! no matter how good or bad it is. i mean sure .. you never really wanna remember bad ones, but those times give rise to even better performances the next time. its been a couple years since ive been in the limelight .. and i cant wait!! it would really mean a lot to me if anyone out there could gO. call or leave a comment if ya can ... [i'll drop the info at the end] 0=)
back to the story! ohh did i mention that practice usually ends at 12?? haha only an hour difference, so i dont know what im complaining about!! but oh well! =P after that ... i meant to shower and go straight to bed, but on my way in i ran into sabrina and hulbert. sabrina went on in, so that hulbert and i could 'converse.' negotiated a priCE for his math book [which was quite a deal!] and talked to him about sabrina and their anniversary. theyre soo cute .. and im so happy for them! 6 months. yay!! =) [note: sabrina, if your reading this, and you wanna know what else we talked about drop by the room! haha or lets get lunch! yay! k byee!]
haha anyway ... ended up doing a lotta talking to melody [and more to hulbert] online. actually, i think i did most of the talking, and i still feel really bad for having to put them through that, but they were nice about it, and i cant thank them enough! it was mostly about charlie but i just have to talk about it once and a while. just to get another perspective on things. it really helps ... i mean, the advice and support and all ... keeps me from getting overly emotional. well, i get emotional while telling it, but i feel its best to get it out when i can, so that when i need to work or do what i have to do, i can do it with a clear head, ya know? for the few people i havent filled in, im so very sorry .. its been really hectic trying to get all my classes straightened out and what not. but in a nutshell ... things arent how they used to be. we're on a "break" or as i see it, broken-up, which is okay, because its best for the both of us, but its still really hard. =') i suppose i should expand on that ... but not now .. im not having an 'emotional' day heheh
now where was i? ... oh yes, by the time all that was over, it was like 3-something. took a shower, and when i got out it was 4:20. waited for my hair to dry .. then finally went to bed at 5-something!
i expected to be up at 8, to help hulbert in his "plan" but that changed, so i got a couple extra hours of sleep until 9:30. had class from 10-11, well no ... we got out like 20 min early .. so then yeah .. went to the room and got my things ready to go home. i was gonna go upstairs to see charlie to say "hi" and "good luck" and stuff .. but that didnt really work out. ::shrugs::
my dad picked me up a little after 12. riding with him is always intersting. the things we talk about and stuff. usually school ... and oddly enough, i was the one who started it. we had a lot of trouble talking about school fall quarter, so this time, to avoid all that, i gave him the breakdown of what happened this quarter. not too detailed, but straight-forward enough. i tried to tell him that certain things were off and that i still havent found out what "works" for me. he argued like he always does and like i expected him to, but he didnt get mad. and that made me soooo .. i dont know. happy? relieved? he was giving me the same advice that he usually does, but it just seemed a little clearer this time around. id always understood it before, but it really hit me. maybe it was the fact that he expressed so much belief in me. i hate it when he does that .. it makes me wanna cry. happy tears, of course. =') its things like that that make me feel like the worst person in the world when i dont meet certain expectations. but its also my motivation for next time around. this is gonna be the quarter everything changes. my dad told me so many other things ... and im seriously more motivated. i was before, but hearing him tell me that ... it meant the WORLD to me. and all this while we were having this insanely mature and intellectual discussion. ::sigh:: and if what he tells me is true, then maybe ... just maybe .. ill have even more to look forward to.
got back a little before 2. he bought me lunch at jack in the box. i really shouldnt be eating fast food ... but its been a while, and i didnt wanna be picky. =P the next time i talk to my dad, it would be cool to talk about guys. i think we have before, but it was always the same thing 'school first and dont get pregnant.' and now that i think about it .. that sort of made its way into the conversation today. eh. but thats not important ... point is, i just really wanna be able to talk to him about more things. i guess boys are a little much, and i should be talking to my mom, but she's not a big fan of the idea either. oh well ...
picked up the brother and sister. and ended up taking a loooooong nap to make up for the lack of sleep. its actually been like that for the last few days. i cant help staying up late. at least i get up for class! =)
turns out while i was sleeping, dad went to barnes and noble without me. and after i explicitly told him that i needed to buy a book. sheesh. that silly guy. bunch of people called me during my nap tOo ... hahah it made me feel special. =) chris called!! that was the first one. i was really surprised. then anna called [im soo sorry i we didnt go out!!]. then manong anthony. and leander called too! i felt so bad for choosing sleep over talking, but i noticed bags under my eyes this morning, and i didnt wanna make it worse. besides, how often do i chose rest over people?
woke up to my brother shaking me to go to dinner. as my brother said, it was "another Kodak moment." and it was. gotta soak up those moments while i can. we're not gonna be able to do this forever. and after dinner i watched tv for like 2 hours. first hour "what i like about you" which isnt bad. and second hour "top model." and oh my gosh!!! i dont know if anyone remembers, but yeah .. remember that beauty pageant i was in a couple of years back?? the "miss carson" thing? =P one of the girls (who also happened to be a finalist) was on the show!! i thought that was pretty cool. i called my mom to watch and everything. hahha im so retarded. turns out the show was a rerun anyway. thanks for killing the mood mom! jk =P
but yes ... so here i am now with this MAJOR update. i really didnt expect it to be this long .. but with all the commentary inbetween .. well ... oops. 0=) luckily, i dont need to pee anymore. hahah okay. hope y'all enjoyed that. be back tomorrow. or sunday. FOR SERIOUS.
♥♥ kristina_marie ♥♥