October is literally an entire month of horror
Salut
I haven't been able to sleep lately. I'll fall asleep at around 12ish then wake up at 4 and get back to sleep around 6. Hence, I have a shitty sleep schedule that makes me tired/wide awake at random times during the day. I'm tempted to take sleeping pills but the addiction scares me more than the lack of sleep. Maybe I'll take my melatonin.
I've been feeling frustrated lately with my weight. Its really hard to find clothes because my chest makes shirts too tight across the chest and too short and I am right in between a size 12 and 14.I'm not super unhappy with my body- I just don't enjoy shopping as much anymore. I've cried a few times in some fitting rooms. It was hard to hear that I went from being the size of a couture model to a "plus-size" model in a span of a few short months. Two years later and I'm still whining about it. I exercise, I eat healthy, check my mail multiple times a day and use the stairs. I think my body may have found a "comfy" zone ,aka "child birth ready", and has chosen to stick to it.
Well, I have no plans for children that don't have fur or meow and purr loudly so I need to have a talk with my body about dropping the whole "baby maker" plan.
Amy and I are attending the Human Rights Conference at Emory during our fall break. Today was the opening address by Jimmy Carter. He was amazing. I can only dream to be as compassionate and wise as him and to do half of what he has done in his lifetime.
I have decided to make a list of people to hug before I die (or they do):
1. Jimmy Carter
2. Ellen Degenres
3. Queen Latifah
...its a work in progress
Paul and I celebrated our One Year Anniversary on Tuesday. We cooked a 4 course meal together and they around the apartment and it was the most wonderful night I have had in a very long time.
Afterwards, we both have gone straight to work. I have midterms after midterms and papers up to my neck along with a huge debate next friday. Paul has...everything, all at once, this week. I'm hoping to possibly see him on Sunday at practice...
My thumb hurts. I don't know if its broken or fractured or chipped or whatever I am pretty much ready just to cut off the damn thing. Its STILL swollen- 5 days later!
I'll describe my horror stories with the wellness center some other time. It pretty much can be summed up in the fact that they called in a prescription pain med that interacts with one of my medicines I have to take daily and the pharmacist refused to give it to me when I went to pick it up. So,on a side note, I have no pain medicine.
If I made a list of everything bad that has happened to me this month it would fill a dozen pages. To sum it up : AAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
Lucky for me, I have supportive and wonderful friends willing to step up and take Paul's place when he can't sit with me at the doctor and to tell me jokes so I don't think about the pain. Oh, and to find good online stores with : D
I find out in one month about my Carter Center internship.
I need ideas for my Christmas list to give to the family...
Until my next, much needed, study break...
Au revior
I haven't been able to sleep lately. I'll fall asleep at around 12ish then wake up at 4 and get back to sleep around 6. Hence, I have a shitty sleep schedule that makes me tired/wide awake at random times during the day. I'm tempted to take sleeping pills but the addiction scares me more than the lack of sleep. Maybe I'll take my melatonin.
I've been feeling frustrated lately with my weight. Its really hard to find clothes because my chest makes shirts too tight across the chest and too short and I am right in between a size 12 and 14.I'm not super unhappy with my body- I just don't enjoy shopping as much anymore. I've cried a few times in some fitting rooms. It was hard to hear that I went from being the size of a couture model to a "plus-size" model in a span of a few short months. Two years later and I'm still whining about it. I exercise, I eat healthy, check my mail multiple times a day and use the stairs. I think my body may have found a "comfy" zone ,aka "child birth ready", and has chosen to stick to it.
Well, I have no plans for children that don't have fur or meow and purr loudly so I need to have a talk with my body about dropping the whole "baby maker" plan.
Amy and I are attending the Human Rights Conference at Emory during our fall break. Today was the opening address by Jimmy Carter. He was amazing. I can only dream to be as compassionate and wise as him and to do half of what he has done in his lifetime.
I have decided to make a list of people to hug before I die (or they do):
1. Jimmy Carter
2. Ellen Degenres
3. Queen Latifah
...its a work in progress
Paul and I celebrated our One Year Anniversary on Tuesday. We cooked a 4 course meal together and they around the apartment and it was the most wonderful night I have had in a very long time.
Afterwards, we both have gone straight to work. I have midterms after midterms and papers up to my neck along with a huge debate next friday. Paul has...everything, all at once, this week. I'm hoping to possibly see him on Sunday at practice...
My thumb hurts. I don't know if its broken or fractured or chipped or whatever I am pretty much ready just to cut off the damn thing. Its STILL swollen- 5 days later!
I'll describe my horror stories with the wellness center some other time. It pretty much can be summed up in the fact that they called in a prescription pain med that interacts with one of my medicines I have to take daily and the pharmacist refused to give it to me when I went to pick it up. So,on a side note, I have no pain medicine.
If I made a list of everything bad that has happened to me this month it would fill a dozen pages. To sum it up : AAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
Lucky for me, I have supportive and wonderful friends willing to step up and take Paul's place when he can't sit with me at the doctor and to tell me jokes so I don't think about the pain. Oh, and to find good online stores with : D
I find out in one month about my Carter Center internship.
I need ideas for my Christmas list to give to the family...
Until my next, much needed, study break...
Au revior