bad, very bad...
I don't know what to do. I'm pretty tired and pre-occupied (with nothing) these days, psychologically speaking. I have constant angst, my nerves are worn thin, and I feel like crying. But I can't, my body won't allow itself to show signs of my inner turmoils. I think about Kent all the time, I miss him, I wish I could be with him, and I'm pretty sure I love him. He's my zahir, so to speak. I've been in love so many times before, but this is completely different from any of those times. I'm mad about him, he's my everything, and I think my life would be so much more complete with him by my side.
Last night I was thinking of how to rid myself from the face of the earth, like I'd given up on it all. I was told to go to the ER and speak to someone representing the psychiatric department. They would probably've taken me in, given me valium, and kept me over night. I went there, but I couldn't get myself to make contact. So I sat there for about half an hour, nothing going through my head, and so I walked back to my place and went to sleep.
I think I want to ask my physician if she can give me a prescription on valium...
Last night I was thinking of how to rid myself from the face of the earth, like I'd given up on it all. I was told to go to the ER and speak to someone representing the psychiatric department. They would probably've taken me in, given me valium, and kept me over night. I went there, but I couldn't get myself to make contact. So I sat there for about half an hour, nothing going through my head, and so I walked back to my place and went to sleep.
I think I want to ask my physician if she can give me a prescription on valium...