wow..
I just saw my last entry, I was on some type of high on life day. I was extremely happy or something. I still am, and I do believe all I said, but I honestly don't remember writing that entry. It is crazy how that all works. It was a nice entry though. It was very cheery. Anyway, I just thought about some things. I don't get how a thought can be so far suppressed but just show up at any given time when it chooses. I don't like thoughts that have control over me. I don't like the coincidence in what I saw. It was very odd to me. I saw one thing, and the thoughts came back. I was thinking about that, and then I saw another thing. It was so odd. It was..well I don't know. I just don't know what to say. I don't like having the thought that just repeatedly bothers me. I feel like screaming it out to the world sometimes just so it is gone, but then again I would never do that. I don't really want to do that, but if it were that east to get rid of..just yelling it out, I would..maybe. Sometimes I think that when people see me that they may know. I think that the way I react to some things makes people wonder. It is so weird to think about some people knowing. I don't know. This is another odd entry, but my mind is in an odd place. I guess I know, and I guess that is the problem. I don't want to know anything about that part of me, but I know it all too well. Sometimes it is all so overwhelming, but then again, how could it not be. I wonder sometimes if it will all just go away. I wonder if I pretend it never happened if it will magically have not. Sometimes it all seems like a dream..more like a nightmare, but ya kno..I think it was real. I am confused now. My head is all spinning, but I am sure..well I don't know what I am sure of..I'm out for now..