Hmmm....
This will probably be another post with a bunch of randomness in it... There is just soo much that is going through my head. I cant seem to keep it all straight. Bella is going to be two in just over a month.. It will probably be a small family gathering, nothing big. I havent seen from her father since her 1st bday and i havent talked to him on the phone since after thanksgiving. That's probably a lost cause, I dont understand why i thought that he was going to be different with Bella.. when he has three other kids he hardly sees.
I still only have the part time job at the church, but have been trying to get full time. So that i can have medical insurance. I also need to fix my car, but have to figure out exactly what is wrong with it first.... lol.
I feel like something is missing, like i dont have something in my life that has been there before.... Not really sure bout that one... That's probably my most confusing group of thoughts... I sometimes feel so alone, like i dont really have anyone to talk to... I dont really have many friends, aside from Shannon... Since having Bella i havent had much time to hang out with people... Cause they have lives too....
So confusing, and i dont have a clue what to do..... Probably will have to keep thinkin on it and praying about it... Something is bound to change at some point...
.... Confused and thoughtful....
Kris