Holy shit, who the hell are you again?
I am so happy that I actually got some comments on my previous entry. That would have been depressing if I hadn't.
So...
I disappeared because of the depression I've been in perpetual battle with since 2010. I'm on the maximum possible dose of Welbutrin (450mg/day) and have been for a while and while it helps quite a bit, I still don't feel the way I did once upon a time (read: when I was at Ringling). Holy shit do I ever miss that person.
I turned 30 in September. I often wonder where I'd be now if Angeline hadn't died.
For people who don't follow me on dA (even though I don't really post a whole lot of journals THERE, either), the more notable changes have occured with Bree, formerly The Bean. She is going to be 19 frickin' years old in February. What the hell. She started COLLEGE this past August. She's getting her cores done at the county college to save money and she then plans on transferring to UTA to major in Photography.
She was 7 when I started at Ringling and 11 when I graduated, so for most of her life she's said that she was going to be like me and be the second person in the family to get a college degree. Now that she's "there", she's actually planning on doing a one-up on me: she wants to get a MASTERS in Photography so she can fall back on teaching if need be. How mature is that?
Also, how cool is it that she actually ended up being an artist in her own right, too? And my GOD is she ever beautiful:
She's had that red hair for a couple years now, and I think it really suits her. Don't you? She's never been a cookie cutter teenage girl, after all. While the others were going to halloween parties, for example, she was working in haunts as a slaughtered psychotic little girl covered in blood and plastic special effects makeup.
But anyway.
Career-wise things have plugged along. My output hasn't been nearly what I'd like it to be because of the depression, but I still get the things done that need to be done. I'm still working for Brown Cow. I've done several projects for him (Bambicide being the latest), and I'm about to start coloring his second children's book even though I can't give y'all the name due to an understood NDA. We're beyond the point of contracts now. :P
Smoking Mouse? Yish. While I did do the armadillo and a couple other things for him that he was VERY happy with and paid me well and promptly, last December he just... disappeared. I had started a new mascot project for him, I did the concept sketches he wanted, I sent them for approval, he loved them, and I never heard from him again. I tried contacting him about five different ways multiple times, but he ignored me. He still actively posts on Facebook, too, the bastard. I sent him a private message, he READ it,and he still never replied. So he stiffed me for $200. Thankfully it wasn't a huge amount of physical work -- YET -- on my part.
Still, though... seriously? You're REALLY going to do business like that with people who deliver for you? You're going to end up biting yourself in the ass if you do that to too many artists, dude. The graphic art industry is very small, and bad reputations spread very fast. This is the first time I've publicly said anything about the incident myself, but other artists probably won't be as nice. Just sayin'.
Less negatively, I still do A-Kon and AnimeFest every year. I have a lot of artwork to post here, and I'm also going to take orders for a calendar (NOT Broadway because... just frickin' no) for the first time since 2010. This one will be all Inuyasha stuff.
So... that's just about all that I can think of right now. It's nice to be back. I'm going to try to STAY "back", too, because I think it's healthy. I've missed it here.
So...
I disappeared because of the depression I've been in perpetual battle with since 2010. I'm on the maximum possible dose of Welbutrin (450mg/day) and have been for a while and while it helps quite a bit, I still don't feel the way I did once upon a time (read: when I was at Ringling). Holy shit do I ever miss that person.
I turned 30 in September. I often wonder where I'd be now if Angeline hadn't died.
For people who don't follow me on dA (even though I don't really post a whole lot of journals THERE, either), the more notable changes have occured with Bree, formerly The Bean. She is going to be 19 frickin' years old in February. What the hell. She started COLLEGE this past August. She's getting her cores done at the county college to save money and she then plans on transferring to UTA to major in Photography.
She was 7 when I started at Ringling and 11 when I graduated, so for most of her life she's said that she was going to be like me and be the second person in the family to get a college degree. Now that she's "there", she's actually planning on doing a one-up on me: she wants to get a MASTERS in Photography so she can fall back on teaching if need be. How mature is that?
Also, how cool is it that she actually ended up being an artist in her own right, too? And my GOD is she ever beautiful:
She's had that red hair for a couple years now, and I think it really suits her. Don't you? She's never been a cookie cutter teenage girl, after all. While the others were going to halloween parties, for example, she was working in haunts as a slaughtered psychotic little girl covered in blood and plastic special effects makeup.
But anyway.
Career-wise things have plugged along. My output hasn't been nearly what I'd like it to be because of the depression, but I still get the things done that need to be done. I'm still working for Brown Cow. I've done several projects for him (Bambicide being the latest), and I'm about to start coloring his second children's book even though I can't give y'all the name due to an understood NDA. We're beyond the point of contracts now. :P
Smoking Mouse? Yish. While I did do the armadillo and a couple other things for him that he was VERY happy with and paid me well and promptly, last December he just... disappeared. I had started a new mascot project for him, I did the concept sketches he wanted, I sent them for approval, he loved them, and I never heard from him again. I tried contacting him about five different ways multiple times, but he ignored me. He still actively posts on Facebook, too, the bastard. I sent him a private message, he READ it,and he still never replied. So he stiffed me for $200. Thankfully it wasn't a huge amount of physical work -- YET -- on my part.
Still, though... seriously? You're REALLY going to do business like that with people who deliver for you? You're going to end up biting yourself in the ass if you do that to too many artists, dude. The graphic art industry is very small, and bad reputations spread very fast. This is the first time I've publicly said anything about the incident myself, but other artists probably won't be as nice. Just sayin'.
Less negatively, I still do A-Kon and AnimeFest every year. I have a lot of artwork to post here, and I'm also going to take orders for a calendar (NOT Broadway because... just frickin' no) for the first time since 2010. This one will be all Inuyasha stuff.
So... that's just about all that I can think of right now. It's nice to be back. I'm going to try to STAY "back", too, because I think it's healthy. I've missed it here.