I dont know what to do anymore. like usual i guess
I think i might just naturally suck with relationships. not just like boy-girl sexual relationships, like ALL relationships, friends, family. i cant do it.
-I made ellery pissed off at me. well she already was, but now its all in the open and its worse cuz i dont know what to do about it. i just dont understand why i need to keep changing for people to like me, and if theres a line, where do i stop, do i stand up for myself, or do i let go.
-I think i made my cousin mad too. I was trying to get her to see that shes beautiful, and that just because her friends all look at pictures of themselves and talk about all their flaws, it doesnt mean she has to do that too.
-and she signed out of msn, and then signed back in, ignored me, signed out, signed in, ignored me. like wtf. i dont know what to do.
- i think i get anxiety attacks. cuz it hurts in my chest and i cant breathe, and i feel like im trapped in myself and it drives me crazy.
-I wish everyone could just talk about whats wrong and we can all just get better. im sick of all this fucking depression. and maybe i'be been depressed for a while now, but it only makes it worse to hear that ellery is embarrassed of me, and my cousin doesnt like herself, and i cant find my place anywhere.
-I keep fucking up everything i do. i need to not talk maybe, cuz apparently its thinking and speaking that get people to hate me.
-i dont like crying. and i dont like comfort. i want to deal with it on my own. its getting harder and harder to burden myself though.
Have you ever wanted to die when you were without your friends?
Haven’t you said goodbye to the one on who your life depends?
Could it be that I don’t wanna save you anymore? could it be that we don’t have what it takes?
(yeah)
Have you ever wished for fire to burn away your mind restraints?
Haven’t you been for hire or suffered those cheap complaints?
Could it be that I don’t wanna save you anymore?
Could it be that we don’t have what it takes?
Take it away ‘cause I don’t like this anymore
Take it away and throw it away
Have you ever wanted to die when you were without your friends?
Haven’t you said goodbye to the one on who your life depends?
Could it be that I don’t wanna hurt you anymore? could it be that we don’t have what it takes?
Take it away ‘cause I don’t like this anymore
Take it away and throw it away
Take it away ‘cause I don’t like this anymore
Take it away and throw it away
-I made ellery pissed off at me. well she already was, but now its all in the open and its worse cuz i dont know what to do about it. i just dont understand why i need to keep changing for people to like me, and if theres a line, where do i stop, do i stand up for myself, or do i let go.
-I think i made my cousin mad too. I was trying to get her to see that shes beautiful, and that just because her friends all look at pictures of themselves and talk about all their flaws, it doesnt mean she has to do that too.
-and she signed out of msn, and then signed back in, ignored me, signed out, signed in, ignored me. like wtf. i dont know what to do.
- i think i get anxiety attacks. cuz it hurts in my chest and i cant breathe, and i feel like im trapped in myself and it drives me crazy.
-I wish everyone could just talk about whats wrong and we can all just get better. im sick of all this fucking depression. and maybe i'be been depressed for a while now, but it only makes it worse to hear that ellery is embarrassed of me, and my cousin doesnt like herself, and i cant find my place anywhere.
-I keep fucking up everything i do. i need to not talk maybe, cuz apparently its thinking and speaking that get people to hate me.
-i dont like crying. and i dont like comfort. i want to deal with it on my own. its getting harder and harder to burden myself though.
Have you ever wanted to die when you were without your friends?
Haven’t you said goodbye to the one on who your life depends?
Could it be that I don’t wanna save you anymore? could it be that we don’t have what it takes?
(yeah)
Have you ever wished for fire to burn away your mind restraints?
Haven’t you been for hire or suffered those cheap complaints?
Could it be that I don’t wanna save you anymore?
Could it be that we don’t have what it takes?
Take it away ‘cause I don’t like this anymore
Take it away and throw it away
Have you ever wanted to die when you were without your friends?
Haven’t you said goodbye to the one on who your life depends?
Could it be that I don’t wanna hurt you anymore? could it be that we don’t have what it takes?
Take it away ‘cause I don’t like this anymore
Take it away and throw it away
Take it away ‘cause I don’t like this anymore
Take it away and throw it away