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just when i think things cant get any better, he always finds a way to make it happen. last thursday i was really nervous because he got me to admit something that i wasnt ready to admit and then friday things were just all weird. saturday we didnt talk much but he had drill and work so he was pretty tired. sunday i drove to drill in mississippi with him and mike. me and mike went on the beach while he was at drill. me and mike had some of the best talks. mike told me everything that i needed to hear about my situation and it made me the happiest person. then sunday and monday they slept at my moms house with me since she was outta town. it was awesome. monday night mike left so it was just me and him. we were laying in the bed and ended up having one of the best conversations ever and it just seriously made my day. hes putting so much into this and i love it. hes doing everything he possibly can to make me happy and he doesnt realize that all i need is to be with him. i wish we were an official couple but things are fine like they are right now. it would just be nice to be able to say that hes mine. im really nervous because i go to alabama tomorrow and i wont see him for at least a week and then when i come back we only have like two weeks together if that and then i go to ny and he goes away to ait for two weeks and doesnt come back til aug21st. it sucks but ill manage. we had a talk last night about him finding someone else and he said that he doesnt think its possible. he wanted to take me to florida today just for the day but i had to babysit. it wouldve been so awesome to go there with just him for a day. we are gonna do it when i come back from alabama. tonight he took me out to dinner. then of course we went to walmart. mike called and wanted to know what we were doing so we went back to their house for a few minutes. i wanted to go somewhere peaceful so we decided on bonnable boat launch. mike said he'd meet us there so me and rog left and mike didnt meet us there. i was actually kinda glad even though thats wrong but i really wanted to spend time with roger. we talked some and it was really nice. for some stupid reason ive been worried that me and roger werent on the same page and i was more into the relationship thingy than he is but he told me im stupid and i worry too much. i wish i could tell him exactly how i feel. we didnt get to spend any time alone after that. i wish we wouldve but oh well. picked up mich m and mike and went to starbucks.. talked for a while and went back to rog&mikes. brought michelle home and then mike called so i went back over there for a few minutes. roger was sleeping but of course i went and woke him up. i had to say bye just one more time. i wanted to just sleep with him tonight. i really did. i dont want to leave and go away from him for however long im gonna be gone but i guess it'll be for the best because then ill be able to think about things by myself and so can he and we'll see how we do apart from each other because we've been together pretty much every day for almost three weeks. its awesome. i cant even begin to describe the way i feel. i havent been this happy in a long time. mike noticed it tonight. when me and mike were outside talking, everytime rogers name came up i smiled. thinking about him makes me happy. hes so freaking great.