What To Do With Soulmates?
I met the person I thought was "the one" a few months shy of 2.5 years ago. We were dynamic. It was my first real relationship, and the most fulfilling thing I've done in my entire life. I seriously thought B and I would end up married.
Earlier today, I had a strange dream. I was studying for some kind of competition with a guy (I think it was B), but we were kicked out of the place we were studying by an older gentleman (let's call him Carl) because the allotted time to study was over. B and I snuck back in and started studying again, and then randomly started having sex (because we were in love), all while switching locations so we could hide from Carl.
We did it in many different positions (me on top riding B's penis, missionary etc...) but my dream self spent a lot of detail describing a scene where I put on a dildo and strapped B (while giving a handjob - of course still looking out for my baby's pleasure). Not sure we were still studying or not lol. So weird. I used to feel like a gay male when I was much younger so maybe that's where that came from? (though I didn't identify as gay or male so that part was weird). Anyway the weird part came at the end, when B was going at it from the backdoor while I impaled myself on a dildo. Later, I was in pain. I woke up and discovered that I was just fantasizing about doing that with B but had broken my hymen with a dildo while fantasizing and was bleeding. I felt stupid because I didn't realize you could take your own virginity.
Then I woke up properly and realized I was in fact in pain and bleeding, but it was because my period had just started (all over my white underpants of course). Figures.
Hmm now I forgot what my dream had to do with what I was saying about soulmates, or why the first part of this was in past tense. Long story short: B may or may not be "the one", but is the one I want to be with. We really should get married - that's how compatible we are. I'm sure as heck not going to propose though (I'm a traditional kinda gal). So B: I know you don't read this, but you need to get on that (mainly joking lol take your time).
What a pointless entry. I guess I'm back. It's been too long.
Earlier today, I had a strange dream. I was studying for some kind of competition with a guy (I think it was B), but we were kicked out of the place we were studying by an older gentleman (let's call him Carl) because the allotted time to study was over. B and I snuck back in and started studying again, and then randomly started having sex (because we were in love), all while switching locations so we could hide from Carl.
We did it in many different positions (me on top riding B's penis, missionary etc...) but my dream self spent a lot of detail describing a scene where I put on a dildo and strapped B (while giving a handjob - of course still looking out for my baby's pleasure). Not sure we were still studying or not lol. So weird. I used to feel like a gay male when I was much younger so maybe that's where that came from? (though I didn't identify as gay or male so that part was weird). Anyway the weird part came at the end, when B was going at it from the backdoor while I impaled myself on a dildo. Later, I was in pain. I woke up and discovered that I was just fantasizing about doing that with B but had broken my hymen with a dildo while fantasizing and was bleeding. I felt stupid because I didn't realize you could take your own virginity.
Then I woke up properly and realized I was in fact in pain and bleeding, but it was because my period had just started (all over my white underpants of course). Figures.
Hmm now I forgot what my dream had to do with what I was saying about soulmates, or why the first part of this was in past tense. Long story short: B may or may not be "the one", but is the one I want to be with. We really should get married - that's how compatible we are. I'm sure as heck not going to propose though (I'm a traditional kinda gal). So B: I know you don't read this, but you need to get on that (mainly joking lol take your time).
What a pointless entry. I guess I'm back. It's been too long.