reconsiderations
Okay, so Im finding homesickness comes in waves and the big wave (xmas/bday) has passed, and with its passing, Im not longer sure how long I want to stay in Oz/NZ/Thailand. I know my friends miss me and there is a part of me that wants to return to them, I miss them, I have loved ones, my cat, my bunny, Tink, Ed, Larry, Pat, Elsa, Christine and even Chris and Claire and I do want to see them all relatively soon. But the idea of going home also scares me like nothing else. I might stay away till early 2008. Thats the longest possibility.. I might come back early (may/june) 2007, but I imagine it'll be between the two. If I dont finish this, Ill never have the same opportunity, but I know my friends will always be there for me.
I once said how every minute was a choice and the truth of that rings stronger here abroad then anywhere else. Home is choosing to settle.. more or less... Im never doing a trip as long as this again.. might as well take full advantage, right?
I do wish ppl could visit but I understand why they cant. So this is independance eh? Interesting.
Just take it one day at a time, you'll have so much fun, no worries, no regrets, home will be home whenever u come back through its doors, life goes on living, with or without me in it, everyone is growing up, experiencing, the world will continue turning, as amazing as it is.
Im enjoying this, the emptiness that can only be filled with my friends and loves back home will be filled, and it rest, being assured of at least that.
So when will the time come for me to return home? Only time will tell
But when that time comes...
Will you remember me?
I once said how every minute was a choice and the truth of that rings stronger here abroad then anywhere else. Home is choosing to settle.. more or less... Im never doing a trip as long as this again.. might as well take full advantage, right?
I do wish ppl could visit but I understand why they cant. So this is independance eh? Interesting.
Just take it one day at a time, you'll have so much fun, no worries, no regrets, home will be home whenever u come back through its doors, life goes on living, with or without me in it, everyone is growing up, experiencing, the world will continue turning, as amazing as it is.
Im enjoying this, the emptiness that can only be filled with my friends and loves back home will be filled, and it rest, being assured of at least that.
So when will the time come for me to return home? Only time will tell
But when that time comes...
Will you remember me?