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Why am I constantly surrounded by idiots. God, I need to leave this town and get away for a little while, leave all this shit behind and relax. Thank goodness Christmas is coming; dealing with my fucked-up family and its drama has never looked so good. I need some of my friends from high school who are worlds away from this shit. I need to vent about things that I can't release up here. I need a break from everything I have to deal with and worry about.
And, on a lighter note, I need to kill something, gut it, and skin it, and butcher the meat off of it's bones for dinner. It's work like that that really takes your mind off things. I want to go sit in the freezing cold in the woods ALONE and think. Think about my problems and the problems of those around me. I need to escape and unfortunately I can't do it with a party and some drinking because exams are coming up.
No, this rant wasn't about exams, while I should be worried about them I find myself dealing with shit that I should not be worrying about right now. Fuck, I have Organic Chemistry at 8am on Monday and I don't know shit about that stuff AND I NEED an A on this exam, possibly to just pass.
Sorry for the sidenote in the middle of this, I really want to go huntin'. It's a good time to sit ALONE and clear one's head. Just don't do it too much or else you'll start going crazy. I did that one year, went nuts in a deer stand. Wrote an article about it to, to send into a hunting magazine, too bad I forgot what it was, it was fucking good too.
Man, I want to WORK too. I'm broke and I miss driving as much as I did over the summer. My boss said I can declare my own hours pretty much, so it won't cut into anything else I want to do. plus that gives me time to think too. It's remarkable how much soul-searching you can get done driving around town for hours a day.
Anyway it's late and I need sleep. (I got a 9am class tomorrow--Organic--and I need to attend) All you who bitch about me never posting better damn well be happy.
And, on a lighter note, I need to kill something, gut it, and skin it, and butcher the meat off of it's bones for dinner. It's work like that that really takes your mind off things. I want to go sit in the freezing cold in the woods ALONE and think. Think about my problems and the problems of those around me. I need to escape and unfortunately I can't do it with a party and some drinking because exams are coming up.
No, this rant wasn't about exams, while I should be worried about them I find myself dealing with shit that I should not be worrying about right now. Fuck, I have Organic Chemistry at 8am on Monday and I don't know shit about that stuff AND I NEED an A on this exam, possibly to just pass.
Sorry for the sidenote in the middle of this, I really want to go huntin'. It's a good time to sit ALONE and clear one's head. Just don't do it too much or else you'll start going crazy. I did that one year, went nuts in a deer stand. Wrote an article about it to, to send into a hunting magazine, too bad I forgot what it was, it was fucking good too.
Man, I want to WORK too. I'm broke and I miss driving as much as I did over the summer. My boss said I can declare my own hours pretty much, so it won't cut into anything else I want to do. plus that gives me time to think too. It's remarkable how much soul-searching you can get done driving around town for hours a day.
Anyway it's late and I need sleep. (I got a 9am class tomorrow--Organic--and I need to attend) All you who bitch about me never posting better damn well be happy.