Summer Work
I really don't want to do it. I tell myself I'll start it and train for XC and PV, and that there will be plenty of time on tour, but it's way to much to procrastinate at this point. I have to read 7 friggin books and do at least one assignment for each that involves doing crap as you read along. It's so dumb! It's one thing if you have to write some kind of reflection at the end, but answering stupid questions on the reading and garbage like that is bull. I think I might not take any notes on the 6 chapters of AP US. It was a huge waste of 56 hours for AP Euro last summer, so screw it.
I like my job. I worked 12.5 hours today. There was a staff meeting, and the boss mentioned how I can't be the one who does everything. It made me feel good that my effort doesn't go to waste but also annoyed that few other people really take initiative. It's ironic that the most nihilistic person there does the most work. I have this thing I call Bonihilism (Bonus Nihil= the good nothing). It's basically nihilism with a positive connotation. Like, the system is bull and there's no point to anything really, but I'll work cuz I get money and with it i can eat and buy stuff which makes me happy. Even though there's no point to it and some might saw i shouldn't even try, since it works out and makes me happy, I might as well play the system. That's pretty much my new philosophy as of a few months ago. I don't think many people can really be fully nihilistic because we were raised into a world with the viewpoint of the world having meaning. We can't help but believe that there's some purpose to things, or at least we're too afraid to give up on life all together because we don't want to ruin what we've been raised to see as a good thing. In the deep crevaces of our minds, doubt conspires, and we can't fully believe that there is no point to anything.
I hate my new phone.
Genny's dad is the coolest.
I like my job. I worked 12.5 hours today. There was a staff meeting, and the boss mentioned how I can't be the one who does everything. It made me feel good that my effort doesn't go to waste but also annoyed that few other people really take initiative. It's ironic that the most nihilistic person there does the most work. I have this thing I call Bonihilism (Bonus Nihil= the good nothing). It's basically nihilism with a positive connotation. Like, the system is bull and there's no point to anything really, but I'll work cuz I get money and with it i can eat and buy stuff which makes me happy. Even though there's no point to it and some might saw i shouldn't even try, since it works out and makes me happy, I might as well play the system. That's pretty much my new philosophy as of a few months ago. I don't think many people can really be fully nihilistic because we were raised into a world with the viewpoint of the world having meaning. We can't help but believe that there's some purpose to things, or at least we're too afraid to give up on life all together because we don't want to ruin what we've been raised to see as a good thing. In the deep crevaces of our minds, doubt conspires, and we can't fully believe that there is no point to anything.
I hate my new phone.
Genny's dad is the coolest.