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after reading kristin and brenda talk about the last year...it made me want to do it too. so, here i go, being a dang copy cat.
i didnt think that 2007 was really that great. in january it was the start of something new. my first kiss on new years at midnight. then waking up at 5am to drive dustin to some shitty airport so he could leave for 4 months or however long it was. lots of crying. but its the last time. he had his birthday, although he wasnt here so i couldnt help him celebrate. 24 isnt a special year or anything, right? february was my birthday. nothing really special happened, except dustin told me he was sending me flowers. then he said he wasnt. and then he did, and i got them at work, and i cried. march i went up to canada for the last time to visit that boy. have my first real taste of what jealousy is. wanted to actually punch someone in the face and make them bleed. drank a lot, and knew what it was like to truly wake up sick. moved out of my parents house and welcomed the new sense of freedom that came with it. april he came home. i cant believe that was 8 months ago. he moved into the apartment and it became ours. went to a RBF concert. realized i hate being younger than him. may was a blur. school and grades and bills and taxes. june was the first time he actually gave me flowers for no reason. went to a padre game. got our fish tank and the fish to go in it. killed those fish. cried because i killed them unknowingly. july marked our official day. 2 years seems like nothing in the vast scheme of things. especially when those 2 years are full of waiting. living one month to the next, just so i could see him again. it seems like it should have crawled by. intense. got all psyched up for HP to come out. the movie i mean. saw it at midnight. a first. was disappointed. hated my mom more for her alcoholism. driving my sister places while she was drunk. lost respect. gained guilt. got the last HP book. AWESOME. lost respect for gina as a person. end of july went to a concert on the green. saw most of RCR for the first time. went to RBF again. then august. oh august, how you spite me. got fired for the first time. seriously went job hunting for the first time. like my life depended on it. because it kinda did. the 8th i got my interview at target. i got a butt load of financal aid that was much needed. went to Dave and Busters for the first time. illegally drank in a public setting. september marks the month that dustin got sick for no reason and scared me by throwing up all day. went to a frat for the first time. alexis and jesse broke up, and alexis went off the deep end. one of the scariest days of my life. october was our first "holiday" at the apartment. decorated and looked like a retard. tried to rush TBS and failed. too much going on. got an unsuspecting allotment from my financial aid. got my first tattoo. carved pumpkins for the first time in forever it seemed. first halloween really dressing like a whore. novemebr made friends with robin. got really sick. 104 degree fevers. got an xmas tree. my dad went into the hospital and almost died. i should have been sadder. had finals, passed all my classes. skipped my jury. went to rachels bday party and felt the pressure of everyone around me getting high, wondering what it was like, and then regretting the thought because dustin was there. went to sea world for the first time in 10 or 12 years. brenda came over and we drank and talked and played guitar hero and sent people messages on myspace. i love my nights with brenda. my bank account went into the hole for the millionth time that year. had xmas morning at my parents house. awkward. didnt have xmas dinner. went to dennys. saw a movie. went to tamaras and jeremys for new years. drank, played games, happy new year! went home, slept.
i hope this year will be more exciting. maybe i should hang out with kristin and brenda more. they had more exciting years than i did.
i didnt think that 2007 was really that great. in january it was the start of something new. my first kiss on new years at midnight. then waking up at 5am to drive dustin to some shitty airport so he could leave for 4 months or however long it was. lots of crying. but its the last time. he had his birthday, although he wasnt here so i couldnt help him celebrate. 24 isnt a special year or anything, right? february was my birthday. nothing really special happened, except dustin told me he was sending me flowers. then he said he wasnt. and then he did, and i got them at work, and i cried. march i went up to canada for the last time to visit that boy. have my first real taste of what jealousy is. wanted to actually punch someone in the face and make them bleed. drank a lot, and knew what it was like to truly wake up sick. moved out of my parents house and welcomed the new sense of freedom that came with it. april he came home. i cant believe that was 8 months ago. he moved into the apartment and it became ours. went to a RBF concert. realized i hate being younger than him. may was a blur. school and grades and bills and taxes. june was the first time he actually gave me flowers for no reason. went to a padre game. got our fish tank and the fish to go in it. killed those fish. cried because i killed them unknowingly. july marked our official day. 2 years seems like nothing in the vast scheme of things. especially when those 2 years are full of waiting. living one month to the next, just so i could see him again. it seems like it should have crawled by. intense. got all psyched up for HP to come out. the movie i mean. saw it at midnight. a first. was disappointed. hated my mom more for her alcoholism. driving my sister places while she was drunk. lost respect. gained guilt. got the last HP book. AWESOME. lost respect for gina as a person. end of july went to a concert on the green. saw most of RCR for the first time. went to RBF again. then august. oh august, how you spite me. got fired for the first time. seriously went job hunting for the first time. like my life depended on it. because it kinda did. the 8th i got my interview at target. i got a butt load of financal aid that was much needed. went to Dave and Busters for the first time. illegally drank in a public setting. september marks the month that dustin got sick for no reason and scared me by throwing up all day. went to a frat for the first time. alexis and jesse broke up, and alexis went off the deep end. one of the scariest days of my life. october was our first "holiday" at the apartment. decorated and looked like a retard. tried to rush TBS and failed. too much going on. got an unsuspecting allotment from my financial aid. got my first tattoo. carved pumpkins for the first time in forever it seemed. first halloween really dressing like a whore. novemebr made friends with robin. got really sick. 104 degree fevers. got an xmas tree. my dad went into the hospital and almost died. i should have been sadder. had finals, passed all my classes. skipped my jury. went to rachels bday party and felt the pressure of everyone around me getting high, wondering what it was like, and then regretting the thought because dustin was there. went to sea world for the first time in 10 or 12 years. brenda came over and we drank and talked and played guitar hero and sent people messages on myspace. i love my nights with brenda. my bank account went into the hole for the millionth time that year. had xmas morning at my parents house. awkward. didnt have xmas dinner. went to dennys. saw a movie. went to tamaras and jeremys for new years. drank, played games, happy new year! went home, slept.
i hope this year will be more exciting. maybe i should hang out with kristin and brenda more. they had more exciting years than i did.