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Tonight was overall a waste and just really complicated because of certain people including my stupid father. I will probably write more later about this past week and weekend and everything that happened but I had an interesting convo with Chris tonight. We went out to the Shoe Tree in Salem again with Justin, James,Katie, and this other girl i didnt know. Me and Chris followed all of them cuz the other girls had never been there. So we're driving in his car and I'm all upset cuz of what my dad did and all the drama with people. He tells me he was gonna call me last night at like 4am to talk to me about the future. He said he had just started thinknig about it a lot and was actually looking forward to it. Lately he's been practically planning out his future with the Marines, as long as Bush gets in. Which has some what made me kinda wish he loses,sorry but I want to be with the one I love and not away from him wondering if he's alive. It was bad enough with Brett and I really dont need to worry with him too. He asked me if I would rather him just get a full time job on top of running his business to get money for school and then we'd end up moving in together and just working things together or join the Marines and after he's back from basic we'd plan on getting married and honeymoon stuff on his 10 days home. Well, I right away said, I know he'd be a lot happier in the Marines. Im scared tho of being a freaking widow at 19. It sounds so insane...but not really to me. It just makes sense. He asked me what I want to do and he knows Ive just always wanted to go off to school. I dont know where or for what tho and basically just want to be with him, marry him, start a life with him. I cant wait for it and then yet I get a little scared of how hard things will be and that I dont want to end up like our parents. Anyway, I was just really happy to hear him want to talk about this stuff and try to plan out what we're gonna do with our lives together. I guess things will get pretty planned out come tuesday....I'm glad I cant vote or I dont know who I'd vote for. I really wish I was where my icon shows.