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I'm feeling all uneasy. I don't know why - I think this uni is really getting close to the end and it's worrying me. I am always thinking of things to do after I finish - jobs to look for - places to go. I need to focus on getting this semester over and done with and passed. I am freaking out about finishing.
I keep thinking that I will start another degree, something that will get me career at the end but then money comes into it. If i finish at the start of November then I have the time and opportunity to get a full time job and earn some money and contribute to the relationship that I am in. I know it sounds weird but I am currently living off $50 a week and it's tough going, especially for my man. He doesn't mind paying for things but in my head, it is unfair that he has to do so...
I realised the other day that I am so freaking scared of loving him. I do love him but I am so scared that he is going to turn around and not want me one day. Not have time for me anymore - just like Jacko did. I had a guy who wanted all the same things that Ric and I want yet he didn't want to make the time for me anymore.
Ah. Life is stressful at the moment. I cannot wait until uni results come out and I hopefully have passed all my courses. I will cry when I am done. It has been 5 years. Woah.
Peace Out.
I keep thinking that I will start another degree, something that will get me career at the end but then money comes into it. If i finish at the start of November then I have the time and opportunity to get a full time job and earn some money and contribute to the relationship that I am in. I know it sounds weird but I am currently living off $50 a week and it's tough going, especially for my man. He doesn't mind paying for things but in my head, it is unfair that he has to do so...
I realised the other day that I am so freaking scared of loving him. I do love him but I am so scared that he is going to turn around and not want me one day. Not have time for me anymore - just like Jacko did. I had a guy who wanted all the same things that Ric and I want yet he didn't want to make the time for me anymore.
Ah. Life is stressful at the moment. I cannot wait until uni results come out and I hopefully have passed all my courses. I will cry when I am done. It has been 5 years. Woah.
Peace Out.