Apr 30, 2007 11:16
It's done.
I recieved a message from Nano as told through his mother. He does not want to speak to me, read letters from me, or see me. Simply for the fact that he does not want to see me suffer.
In a way, it's good that he wants this. I can't wait by my phone day after day hoping he's going to call. Even when he did call I would cry. His letters made me sad. Even when I got to see him I'd cry.
It's hard to remember who I was before my emotions were at the mercy of another person. I was strong. I was able to stand on my own. No one could make me cry. I didn't need anyone.
I understand what he's trying to do, but it still hurts very much. All I can do is ask God to give Nan stregth to get through this and give me strength to get on with my life.