if i lay here. if i just lay here. would you lie with me? and just forget the world?
i'm in a good mood. tonight i closed the store and played frisbee inside with some kids and outside and didn't get home until 2am. it was a real good night. yesterday night was good too. i went to ems and say everyone and talked to some cool kids online and talked to my husband on the telephone until..2am. haha. it's my new favorite time. i'm not really too worried about college & friends. like. i am. but i definitely realized that the true friends and i.. nothing will change. the ones who are worth it. and if something does fallout, then.. like.. were they really my friend anyway? like.. now i'll know who's true. like it wasn't worth it then. this is redundant. ha.but i'm not too concerned because if i do fallaway then they werent my true friends anyway so why should i care. there, that sums it up. its like my last entry, we find people in this life who we need or need us and they were meant to be in our lives and in the meantime you just hang with the ones who are around you. theres nothing wrong with that but those are the passing friends. eventually they find the ones who need them. otherwise, i think i'm finally ready. like i wont be too sad saying goodbye now anymore. maybe ill cry cuz it will be hard. but november isnt even 3 months away. i can totally do this. i'm ready and that feels good. right now im snuggled up in my bed with my laptop and that feels good too. i am good =).
oh, some fitting lyrics from wicked:
"i've heard it said that people come into our lives for a reason. bringing soemthing we must learn and we are led to those who help us most to grow if we let them. and we help them in return. well i don't know if i believe that's true. but i know i'm who i am today because i knew you. like a comet pulled from orbit as it passes a sun. like a stream that meets a boulder halfway through the wood. who can say if i've been changed for thebetter? but because i knew you, i have been changed for good. it well may be that we may never meet again in this lifetime. so let me say before we part so much of me is made of what i learned from you, you'll be with me like a handprint on my heart. and now whatever way our stories end i know you have rewritten mine by being my friend. like a ship blown from its mooring by a wind off the sea. like a seed dropped by a skybird in a distant wood. who can say if i've been changed for the better? but because i knew you i have been changed for good. and just to clear the air i ask forgive for the things i've done you blame me for. but then i guess, there's been blame to share, and none of it seems to matter anymore. like a comet pulled from orbit as it passes a sun. llike a ship blown from its mooring by a wind off the sea. like a stream that meets a boulder halfway through the wood. like a seed dropped by a skybird in a distant wood. who can say if i've been changed for the better...i do believe i have been changed for the better. and because i knew you i have been changed for good."
oh, some fitting lyrics from wicked:
"i've heard it said that people come into our lives for a reason. bringing soemthing we must learn and we are led to those who help us most to grow if we let them. and we help them in return. well i don't know if i believe that's true. but i know i'm who i am today because i knew you. like a comet pulled from orbit as it passes a sun. like a stream that meets a boulder halfway through the wood. who can say if i've been changed for thebetter? but because i knew you, i have been changed for good. it well may be that we may never meet again in this lifetime. so let me say before we part so much of me is made of what i learned from you, you'll be with me like a handprint on my heart. and now whatever way our stories end i know you have rewritten mine by being my friend. like a ship blown from its mooring by a wind off the sea. like a seed dropped by a skybird in a distant wood. who can say if i've been changed for the better? but because i knew you i have been changed for good. and just to clear the air i ask forgive for the things i've done you blame me for. but then i guess, there's been blame to share, and none of it seems to matter anymore. like a comet pulled from orbit as it passes a sun. llike a ship blown from its mooring by a wind off the sea. like a stream that meets a boulder halfway through the wood. like a seed dropped by a skybird in a distant wood. who can say if i've been changed for the better...i do believe i have been changed for the better. and because i knew you i have been changed for good."