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It's been a pretty tough week. I was grounded so that stunk not being able to do karate or talk to Jess.... There was quite a few times during the week that I was in tears wishing I could talk to somebody about the crud going on.I found out that another friend has been lieing to me about well.. pretty much everything, and I found out the situation at church is 10 times worse than I thought it was. I was pretty upset when I found out the truth of what happened. Stuff at home has been pretty tough too. Catie has been a huge pain, but I'm trying to be patient & kind with her. It's not easy though when she's telling me she wishes I would go off and kill myself ect. She's got the rest of the kids saying stuff like that too and it really hurts. I tried talking to my parents about it but as usual they didn't give a rats butt about it.
The upcoming move is constantly on my mind. I can't think about it without crying. As it keeps coming closer I'm getting more and more afraid. I know God has something planned for this and I have peace about that but at the same time I don't know how I'm gonna get through this without having you guys & Jess. I'm so afraid of the influences up there. And Dad just informed me that I'm going to be going to public school for my Senior year.... I am definatly not looking forward to that. I mean yeah it will be cool having a diffrent routine and everything but I know Satan is gonna use this time when I'm the weakest to try and get me to screw up big time. I know theres going to be many times in the school where I'm gonna have to choose between my faith and fitting in. Cuz I'm gonna be hurting, I'm going to want to have friends and stuff so it's going to be so easy for me to comprimise in order to fit in. I'm praying though that I'll be able to stay strong and not let that happen. But I know it's going to be very very difficult. It's going to be hard enough just being the "new kid" but then also I've never been to a real school before except for K5 but that doesn't really count.
On a happier note Dad & I went prom shopping on Monday and that was fun. Who would of thought shopping with your Dad could be fun? haha. We found everything so thats a load off. The dress is apsolutly GORGEOUS. And this year I'm being brave and trying heels.... I'm sooooo gonna fall flat on my face. lol! It was cool though having time with my Dad where he wasn't biting my head off over something or giving me a long list of things he wanted me to do. It was nice. And everything looks sooooooo nice together. I can't wait for May to come!!!
Work yesterday was fun. It was a long day, but a fun day. I was soooooooooooo hyper the whole day and this other girl, Kelisha was also hyper and so we were both creeping everybody else out. It was fun! For a while I was in the back drive-thru and was taking orders. There were these two guys who were 16-17 who came thru and so I took their order then asked them if they needed anything else and one of the guys goes "Your number" and so I'm like "Your total is _____ "fill in the blank" pull up to the first window and um... NO." And the guys CRACKED up. It was pretty funny.
Anyhoo I need to go finish school... Woohoo... NOT! I HATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE Algebra! I'll see y'all sometime next week.
The upcoming move is constantly on my mind. I can't think about it without crying. As it keeps coming closer I'm getting more and more afraid. I know God has something planned for this and I have peace about that but at the same time I don't know how I'm gonna get through this without having you guys & Jess. I'm so afraid of the influences up there. And Dad just informed me that I'm going to be going to public school for my Senior year.... I am definatly not looking forward to that. I mean yeah it will be cool having a diffrent routine and everything but I know Satan is gonna use this time when I'm the weakest to try and get me to screw up big time. I know theres going to be many times in the school where I'm gonna have to choose between my faith and fitting in. Cuz I'm gonna be hurting, I'm going to want to have friends and stuff so it's going to be so easy for me to comprimise in order to fit in. I'm praying though that I'll be able to stay strong and not let that happen. But I know it's going to be very very difficult. It's going to be hard enough just being the "new kid" but then also I've never been to a real school before except for K5 but that doesn't really count.
On a happier note Dad & I went prom shopping on Monday and that was fun. Who would of thought shopping with your Dad could be fun? haha. We found everything so thats a load off. The dress is apsolutly GORGEOUS. And this year I'm being brave and trying heels.... I'm sooooo gonna fall flat on my face. lol! It was cool though having time with my Dad where he wasn't biting my head off over something or giving me a long list of things he wanted me to do. It was nice. And everything looks sooooooo nice together. I can't wait for May to come!!!
Work yesterday was fun. It was a long day, but a fun day. I was soooooooooooo hyper the whole day and this other girl, Kelisha was also hyper and so we were both creeping everybody else out. It was fun! For a while I was in the back drive-thru and was taking orders. There were these two guys who were 16-17 who came thru and so I took their order then asked them if they needed anything else and one of the guys goes "Your number" and so I'm like "Your total is _____ "fill in the blank" pull up to the first window and um... NO." And the guys CRACKED up. It was pretty funny.
Anyhoo I need to go finish school... Woohoo... NOT! I HATEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE Algebra! I'll see y'all sometime next week.