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so... i still havn't managed to get the fuck out of dodge.
its like shit is just inevitably raining down on me sometimes.
i hate to be a stick in the mud, always crying for my own vain reasons.
sure, bad things never happen to anyone else.
but i spent the night at a friend's house last nite, so fucking cold!
it brought out the worst in my pnemonia and i caught some sort of eye-
infection... not to mention the car broke down and i had to walk the rest
of the way to my parents place at 8 in the morning... and one of my contacts
either fell out or rolled up under my eyelid. i have no idea which.
i seriously need money. i'm a complete bafoon. i guess i'll see if there
are people here at the lake who need computer work, as usual. this time-
i'll accept their gracious monetary gifts. and clean my mom's house too,
i need the money and she offered to pay me, though i think it's simply a ruse
to get me to give her a reason to give me money. i'll follow, play the game.
anything to get the electricity and heat turned back on in my apt in maryville.
i need to keep things level and clear minded. these next 4 weeks, maybe 5 or 6, are going to be rough. and reality sets in.
its like shit is just inevitably raining down on me sometimes.
i hate to be a stick in the mud, always crying for my own vain reasons.
sure, bad things never happen to anyone else.
but i spent the night at a friend's house last nite, so fucking cold!
it brought out the worst in my pnemonia and i caught some sort of eye-
infection... not to mention the car broke down and i had to walk the rest
of the way to my parents place at 8 in the morning... and one of my contacts
either fell out or rolled up under my eyelid. i have no idea which.
i seriously need money. i'm a complete bafoon. i guess i'll see if there
are people here at the lake who need computer work, as usual. this time-
i'll accept their gracious monetary gifts. and clean my mom's house too,
i need the money and she offered to pay me, though i think it's simply a ruse
to get me to give her a reason to give me money. i'll follow, play the game.
anything to get the electricity and heat turned back on in my apt in maryville.
i need to keep things level and clear minded. these next 4 weeks, maybe 5 or 6, are going to be rough. and reality sets in.