Words fall short...
Nothing I can say can quite quantify the moments, thoughts, and emotions I've experienced from the week that was and continue to experience now. So much has changed. So much has occurred. What I thought couldn't be...suddenly and tenderly became. My barriers of entry washed away with a touch...letting go to let in lost love.
(Smiling at me, I hold on to it like a beautiful gift.)
It began again just like it did so long ago. Laying in the dark holding each other, eyes closed, and our faces just an inch apart...the silence and the stillness. And then we kissed. I put aside my defenses and pulled her in and she curled up in my arms. I almost forgot how well we fit. She told me she never stopped loving me. I never stop loving her. Nothing ever gave me greater joy than sharing happiness with her. The pain I carried within for so long finally subsided. This moment and the proceeding moments flowed like a wonderful dream. There is so much more...but I will hold on to it for now.
For Niki and I, it is a new beginning...a new chapter together to set things right. We have grown a lot since we broke up 3 years ago. We loved each other intensely back then but bad timing and fate tore us apart. The timing feels so right now and everything feels perfectly aligned. In truth, a part of me is naturally scared. Getting back together is a serious matter. We have already been through so much and there is no such thing as simply "just dating" again. Nonetheless, I am confident concerning the feelings we share, where we are, and on our future together. I know and seek comfort in that "the past does not equal the future". Once more, I put my faith in her, just as she puts her faith in me.
Now, with her hand in mine, I say good-bye to the trees and shores that have been my home for oh so long. Holding on to each other, we drift further out, letting the current of fate carry us away. I hope the future is kind to us. I know this next 6 months will be a great test for the both of us. Regardless, I know in my heart of hearts this was meant to be.
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