the ups and downs : the beautiful and damned (2/2)

[douc]

the ups and downs : the beautiful and danned (2/2)
(snsd/dbsk - yoona/changmin) ≈6731wds; pg
weeks fly by and she’s scared (again) - yoona doesn’t know what she wants or what she feels or where she belongs (whom she belongs to) or if what she feels is real.

■ part 2 (part 1) of aoza's request (the conversation with you on twitter last night helped, a lot)

Comments

[douc]

spot for aoza

HOLY SHIT.

[aoza]

This is... I can't... I don't even have the words.

When I clicked on this link, I knew I would be getting a beautiful end to a wonderful start to this oneshot... but... I was not expecting this. I wasn't expecting to be completely floored and in love with how you wrote all of this down because I am - floored, I mean. Utterly and completely blown away by the intensity of the words written here. I am stickler for grammar and such, and even though I see mistakes here and there - it doesn't change the fact that this is a truly magnificent story. I think I would have fallen in love with this the same way even if I didn't ship Changmin and Yoona together all that much.

Yuri, this fic is... beautiful. There's no other way to say it. The harshness of the reality both Yoona and Changmin are facing in this is so realistic, I can totally picture going on in my head. You are the only one I know who gets this pairing the same way I do. You see them the way I see them, and when you combine that with words such as these - everything becomes so

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[douc]

This idea of writing then in the most realistic way (in my way of seeing it) has been bothering me for quite some times and after going through such a tough time with everything in real life for the past few weeks, it effected how angsty this turns out a little. But basically I don't see Changmin & Yoona as a couple, in anyway cheerful. I think there is something that is heartbreaking about them which is one of the reasons that attracts me to them. You're also the only person I know that sees them the way I do - I see them as real, already there but not quite yet.

WOW....I am blown away by your response, to get such a thoughtful and flattering response from my favorite author is just...um...wow! No, thank you for getting me to write this and I am over the moon that you seem to love it so much.

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[aoza]

But basically I don't see Changmin & Yoona as a couple, in anyway cheerful.
If they were a couple... they wouldn't be cheerful at all. Probably mellow, happy at best. But hidden/secret, like everything should be between two idols in love.

Gosh, Yuri. You just get me, huh?

[bollywoodrecord]

god i don't even know what to say.

I was reading this the whole time and I just kept thinking angstangstangstangst and I don't even ship Changmin/Yoona but I think I have a new OTP. You write them that amazingly. I mean, I am just inspired to write them now, even though it will not end up near as wonderful or as perfect as yours is. I especially love how perfectly you were able to make their relationship seem a hundred percent real even though it's hard to get on-screen moments of theirs. Like, I can still see all of this happening. I think I said this on my other comment to the first part of the fic, that even though I love Yoona and think she is one of the most genuine people out there, the way you describe her is so... Detailed and vivid that I can see her like this, you know?

I want to say something worthy of this fic but I'm kind of just mindblown at the moment. This is just... Perfection. Your writing always ends up stunning me, even though I know you write wonderfully. Thank you so much for writing ♥

[douc]

REALLY? CHANGMIN/YOONA IS ONE OF YOUR OTP NOW!!
you have no idea how happy that just made it, we need more writers and more shippers ;~; do write it and post it asap, you're flattering with - I already know that it would be such a wonderful read. I'm really glad that you think it seems 100% realistic, to be honest I did struggle a lot with all the confessions etc. cause it's do hard to keep changmin and yoona on character at some point. Wow, I think I actually did good at writing Yoona cause I've been postive comments on that XD

And I love, love how long and descriptive this comment is :)

[lolliloveee]

I KNEW IT. I KNEW IT. yoochun and yoona will be forever fuck buddies. it's written in my fandom pairing law. and whatever, nikka doesn't believe in that fuck thing, but they are just fucking each other hard. AND YES. YES. PUT SULLI'S FUCKING DRESS ON FIRE, PUT DONGHAE'S JACKET ON FIRE. (even if it breaks the pyrotechnic in me) badass yoona is the coolest shit ever.

I had to get the somewhat ridiculous thought of me before I actually comment. I'm gonna say it again, I love you. I fucking love you Yuri.

It makes me sad that they didn't end up together, but this was beautifully written. I love it to pieces, everything just makes so much sense. You pieced real life with fanfiction, oh how hard it is to make it so it's not all fucked up. I'm not very good when it comes to meaningful comments it's because I'm a teenager with hormones, it's given. But it's just so so angsty and it's like you made a song with these words, so it's like that beautiful lyrics to the melody and basically just MADE A MIRACLE (you know I was actually gonna

[douc]

TROLOLOLOL how much this comments crack me up is ridiculous. I don't think their eff buddies but I would like think Yoochun is greasy when It comes to Yoona lol. I basically made her put everything on fire - its horrible but I'm glad that at least you enjoyed it - -" but yes, badass yoona is oh-so-cool.

Already told you early on twitter but I love, love you too /hugs

It's not really the end, they're both still in SM, they're both still got years to go. This fic is not really an end-end but an ending for you all to think of the possibility of what they could be in the future. I am actually happy with how this ended up, I wasn't that happy with the first part tbh but now it's really done, this is the most satisfied I've been with my fic in a long time.

LMFAO this comment is already meaningful enough, it's thoughtful plus it gives me a good laugh at the start (also this is longer than your essay :3)

[silentlybelieve]

oh my god. i don't even know how to describe this, how to start this comment because oh my god, this was just perfection. it's like flawless! except when you wrote Jeon Seohyun when her real name is Seo Joohyun. That could have been intentional but idk

i don't even ship this couple too hard, i do think they're adorable, but i'm not an avid shipper. but this fic just changed my mind ;______; i still don't ship them like totally, but i'll be looking out for some moments here and there.

the part where she lits jinri & donghae's clothing on fire, i actually like pictured that in my head and could imagine it so vividly.

your whole yoona character seems so.... real. like beneath her whole girls' generation visual, always smiling yoong, i feel like she would feel like this underneath :3

i love you yuri ♥

[douc]

LOL WORST MISTAKE EVER! I must have been writing this on a really late night or else something like this wouldn't have happened.

I'm glad that I can make you pay a bit more attention to this OTP with this fic. One of the pleasures of shipping this couple is the small ninja!moments shared between them especially all the eye contacts.

I hope she didn't go through that much of a bad phase but at the same time, I'm happy that you think m characterization of her is realistic :)

I love you too, Jinhee ♥ /hugs

[museelo]

this was mindblowing.
I'm amazed. It was amazing, I'm speechless.

Will mem-it later.
thank you so much for this, it was so so good.
I'm sorry, this isn't a proper comment, I know it, but I don't know how to phrase my thoughts at the moment. It was that good.

Thank you so much. ♥

[douc]

Awww...every comment is a proper comment (to me).
It makes me really happy to know that you enjoy this, thank you for reading and commenting :)