PURELY PLATONIC (FANMIX)
(1) THE FAME
i can't help myself I'm addicted to a life of material
it's some kind of joke, I'm obsessively opposed to the typical all we care about is, runway models, cadillacs and liquor bottles (lady gaga)
“I’m going to be even bigger than them one day.”
The leggy brunette standing beside him, chirped enthusiastically as she looks up at the latest H.O.T’s poster pasted on the brick wall with admiration burning in her eyes.
Byung Hee chuckled and turned to look at her in fascination. “Yeah? I see, you aim high.”
“Everyone at this auditions, aim high.” Her eyes met his as she continues. “I just aim higher than most people. That’s why; I’m going to be the biggest of all.”
Byunghee was speechless. He isn’t sure if he was appalled with how conceited this girl is or impress with her overflowing confidence.
“And you are?”
She throws him her million dollar smile and flips her hair. “Lee Jooyeon”
(2) HANG WITH ME
will you tell me once again,how we're gonna be just friends.
if you're for real and not pretend,
then I guess you can hang with me. (robyn)
Byung Hee is a pretty cool guy. He’s full of determination and no doubt, musically gifted. She thinks they would make a good pair, not in a girly BFF way, not in a romantic way either but in a way that they can depend on each other when in time of needs.
The way he’s looking at her lately is bothering her, she must admit. Jooyeon can recall that look somewhere in high school, from a senior boy. He looks like he’s in love. If she’s is right then she might have to cut him loose. She doesn’t need a love sick puppy on her tail.
“You can hang with me, if you want.” She tells him after a month of knowing him. “Just don't fall recklessly headlessly in love with me.”
He laughs like she just told him a good joke. “Never, consider it a done deal.”
At least, that’s what she used to want.
(3) DELICATE
and why'd ya sing Hallelujah if it means nothing to you,
why'd you sing with me at all? (damien rice)
It’s been nearly four years. They’ve kissed twice - once drunk, once caught in the moment. They’ve hold hands fifty times - only in a friendly way, only twenty times that their finger really intertwines. They’ve slept in the same bed twenty three times - they fell asleep, it doesn’t count. They’ve shared embraces more than he could count, sometime it’s in glee, and sometime one of them has tears streaming down their face.
It means nothing to her.
It means everything to him.
It’s an affair but not one involving love.
(4) EET
it's like forgetting the words to your favourite song.
you can't believe it, you were always singing along.
it was so easy and the words so sweet. (regina spektor)
“G.O. - shii….”
Jooyeon whispers to herself absentmindedly as she looks into the big crowd on the stage. He’s all the way on the other side but she recognizes his hair, his back, even the way he stands.
She tries again.
“Byung Hee - shii…”
It’s all wrong.
Her tongue feels numb, the taste in her mouth make her scrunch her nose. She can’t bring herself to call him something along the line of ‘shii’ or even his stage name. He has debut now, she can’t march over and hold his hands and make small talks like she used to. It’s like losing something that used to belong to you.
From the corner of her eyes, she sees Jin Ah starts chatting it up with him. He smiles. She smiles. They laugh.
Jooyeon feels like he’s slipping away by the second
(5) LOVE IT WHEN YOU CALL
so what's the complication it's only conversation
i love it when you call
but you never call at all (the feelings)
He glances at his phone once every five minutes. He will lightly swipe his finger across the screen, waiting for it to light up in anticipation and there will always be nothing. He ends up disappointed, his heart doesn’t break or anything though. It hasn’t gone that far yet but he was sure, it’s some type of an unhealthy obsession. I
t gets worse because he’s too stubborn to call him herself.
It’s about one’s pride, he tells them but Seungho rolled his eyes and say he doesn’t have such thing. He came up with a better excuse and tells them she’s busy in Japan. Mir rolls his eyes and shakes his head. Jooyeon wouldn’t want him to hear his annoying voice.
Too bad, he wants to hear her rant about the new girl in the group or the disgusting nail polish that the stylist put on her.
(6) WHERE THE STORY ENDS
all we know is distance we're close
and then we run kiss away the difference
i know you hate this one (the fray)
“Friends?”
She shows up at his door after that one, reckless night. The way Jooyeon said the word ‘friends’ makes him cringe, at that moment it sounded like the ugliest thing in the world. He feels a rush of emotion rush through him as he dug his nail into the door knob in his hand. Byunghee couldn’t tell himself if he’s angry, disappointed or distraught or maybe even all of those things at once.
They kissed yesterday, in the snow, in front of her door after he walks her back. Byunghee remembers the panic he saw in her eyes as she scurried away and slammed the door in his face.
Right now, she’s staring back with glassy eyes, terrified pale like she has just seen a ghost. Her hair is a mess, unlike her normal perfect self and he recognizes that she must have ran here.
He realizes, she’s always the one to run when they’re so close.
“Friends, just friends”
(7) CHINESE
tomorrow we'll take the dog for a walk
and in the afternoon then maybe we'll talk
i'll be exhausted so I'll probably sleep
and we'll get a Chinese and watch TV (lily allen)
Jooyeon stares at her phone for the hundredth time in the last hour. She almost threw it out the window when NO MESSAGE in bright red is written on her screen.
“You miss him?”
She jumps a little when she heard Kahi whisper. The older girl had immediately fallen into deep sleep once they got on the bus. Obviously she wasn’t in that deep of a sleep like everyone had thought.
Jooyeon clears her throat and shifts uncomfortably in her seat, checking if anyone else is still awake. “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“We’re going to past his dorm soon.” She says teasingly, her eyes still close.
“Let me know if you want to stop along the way.” And that was how she ends up, shivering in the cold without a jacket and knocking frantically at his door.
Jooyeon could hear ‘ow’, ‘shit’ and all kind of curses from the other side of the door. She bet her money that everyone had force Mir, the maknae to come get the door.
To her surprise, a cranky, Byunghee appears at the door with a loud groan as he rubs his eyes lazily. She almost giggle at his bed hair, it was sticking all over the place with some strands falling in his eyes.
“Jooyeon?” He asks, yawning. “What are you doing here?”
She no longer feel lonely when she says, “I brought Chinese, wanna watch TV?”
Jooyeon must admit, she doesn’t want anything more than to see his face when he opens the door.
BONUS
(8) LADY
getting more and more tired of waiting.
your nonchalant expression, I keep getting hurt.
when I see other couples, I feel more pathetic. (after school blue)
(9) ONE
you are my one and only beauty queen.
even today, the two of us. in my dreams.
Imagining us as the perfect couple (mblaq)
(10) I KNOW
i’m with you, so I’m happy, and nothing else
because I’m confident that I’ve found my other half
now I want to wake up every day with you (seungri ft. iu)
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note to the bday girl: so yes, this is my indercibly overdue b-day present to the flawless, ever so talented, sweet, lovely, jesa (withoutchange). My apologies for being so late, I struggle a little (or a lot) with writing this pairing and puttiing all the songs together to match up with the drabbles. Well here it is and I hope you enjoy it because I can't really do much more than this for you. Oh and click here to see me confess my love to you (and my fail attempt at PSD) ♥
