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i really need someone to talk to.. but i don't have anyone because NO ONE fucking cares. i've been trying to fight the tears but i just can't anymore. I WANT TO DIE. i seriously wish i would. i hope i get ran over by a car or i get struck by lightning.. or something. i'm just so sick of trying. i have nothing to live for. no one remotely understands me. i seriously think that no one would even shed a tear if i was dead. i'm a big burden to everyone. actually there's one little thing that keeps me wanting to live.. losing weight. it's going to be the only thing that keeps me happy. my goal weight for now is 95 lbs. if i am still feeling lonely and morbid once i get there then i will just keep losing. i'm going to keep losing until i become happy and all the pain is gone. even if it kills me. i seriously think that even if i get down to like 50 lbs i won't be good or skinny enough for someone to love me. i just want to be completely gone..