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sigh. i checked my grades today on-line and they are absolutely horrible. i'm failing geometry right now.. ugh. it's because my teacher can't fucking teach for shit. and practically anyone would agree with me. i had her last year for algebra. two years in a row with mrs. carstenson is no fun. i don't think i'm ever going to get all A's. i guess my hopes were too high. i'm fucking trying i sware.. maybe just not hard enough. maybe i really a stupid. i want to be in the top 10 percent of my class but here ain't no way that's gonna be happen. there are so many people smarter than i am.. prettier than i am. and i'm.. just me. nothing special..
I HAVE NOTHING.
there's nothing worse in life than being ordinary - american beauty
that couldn't be more true. i don't want to be average. i want to stand out from the crowd. i want to be noticed.. i want to be above average.
i want to be skinny.. beautiful.. perfect. i know it's not good to obsess about this. letting becoming perfect control your whole life. then you can't truly be happy and relax because you're so worried about achieving perfection. nothing else matters.
I HAVE NOTHING.
there's nothing worse in life than being ordinary - american beauty
that couldn't be more true. i don't want to be average. i want to stand out from the crowd. i want to be noticed.. i want to be above average.
i want to be skinny.. beautiful.. perfect. i know it's not good to obsess about this. letting becoming perfect control your whole life. then you can't truly be happy and relax because you're so worried about achieving perfection. nothing else matters.