"Scratched your name in the side of a bullet"

[korupt_n_krazy]

So I think it's only part of human nature to blame everyone else for any hindrances that we seem to encounter, or any troubles that we have to endure. I know that even I am guilty of this from time to time, because who wants to face the music and admit that something is actually their own fault, that they are the reason for their own unhappiness. But in actuality it generally is all left up to choice, and there is nothing I despise more, than someone who completely ignores this fact. I know many things are beyond our control, but if we cannot control the act that happens we can always control how we react to it. I have a few friends that do this constantly, and it annoys the living shit out of me. I have no idea why for some reason they feel that the world is out to get them. It is ridiculous. I kind of just want to slap them across the face and say "hey bitch! wake up, because it is not all about you!" But well I can't necessarily do that, but I can get extremely agravated with them, clench my fists and image their head exploding right in front of me...oops! Wouldn't that be tragic? I think not. The thing that bothers me, is that they don't truly understand what it means to have it hard, now I am not going to go into details about how some of the things that I have had to endure would make them slit their wrists in their bedroom while sitting in the dark, listening to emo music. It's insane. I was talking with my wife today about some things that really made me think--parents really suck sometimes, because at the time they can't see the folly in their ways. For instance my dad--yeah there are novels worth of stories I could tell as to why I am  the way I am--but Jesus, no one wants to hear that, that is a story for a day full of depression and much more Jack Daniels. Ugh, it angers me to think about how f-ed up parents can be. My mom, tries her hardest, but we all know damn well she is the reason my sister is so f-ed up. I mean damn, no one her age should have experienced what she has--what's sad is she doesn't even remember some of it--but I do. It's crazy how the mind works. We all do things like that--ya know, block out things that we wish didn't happen. Wow, so this has taken a turn for the random and kinda retarded. I think I am going to stop now, so night. Peace.

Sometimes I amaze myself because I truly make no sense in the way my brain works--ya know, the whole thought process thing--crazy!