Just Thinking
I don't know what's wrong with me lately, but i am second guessing everything. my relationships with friends, family, andrew...it just doesn't make any sense. does he even want to be with me? what are we honestly? i hate that he doesn't know how to tell me anything...like tonight he told me he needs to tell me something, but he has to do it in person when we hang out on friday...but he got extremely upset after he told me that, and then he wouldn't tell me. i don't know what to do...i love him so damn much, like more than i thought i could ever love him. i don't know how he relaly feels, i know he loves me, but i can't help but feel like he is confused, adn he doesn't know the difference between love and lust. i dunno. it's like i'm trapped in this situation right now, and i don't know what to do to get out of it. because i love him, but honestly sometimes he does treat me like shit, i justify it by saying that it's just him, but in reality it isn't ok, because it hurts. i have cried so many tears over him, and i don't know if it is worth it anymore. i hope he has something good to tell me on friday, and that he doesn't second guess like he always does, because nothing hurts more than having him do something and the next day taking it back like oops i'm sorry i don't really love you, and i don't really wanna be with you...oh well. i have to go now, so love love love