Why...
Depression sucks
Wah wah wah right? My life sucks wah wah. I know, I hear it all the time any time I try to talk to someone about it. All these people I even try to remotely open up to just shut me down and stab at me some more, make my scars and wounds 10x worse than they are.
And people wonder why I stopped talking to people....
I guess this is my only means to really say what's on my mind at any given time without some asshole who claims to be a good friend of mine putting me down for fucking being utterly depressed right now.
I am just so lost.... When I think I got back up on my feet, SHE comes and just... breaks me again. It's like she loves to see me suffer. When it's not her... it's my last ex.
Recently, she came to me at work and threw some... interesting news on me. She claimed she was 4 months pregnant and that it was... mine. The thing is, I haven't been with her in over 7 months and the last time I saw her was 2 months ago at a friend's wedding... What the fuck? Why the hell do you even TRY to pin this on me? Why the hell do you fucking people just throw everything on me and just love to see me suffer? Why can't you just let me be HAPPY for once....
Maybe I should ask myself that question too...
I try, I really do. And I apologize to the few people that really do give a damn about me and care about me... I know you're there for me, it's just hard when you're not physically here...
I wish I could stop this... Because I cannot do this much longer...
Wah wah wah right? My life sucks wah wah. I know, I hear it all the time any time I try to talk to someone about it. All these people I even try to remotely open up to just shut me down and stab at me some more, make my scars and wounds 10x worse than they are.
And people wonder why I stopped talking to people....
I guess this is my only means to really say what's on my mind at any given time without some asshole who claims to be a good friend of mine putting me down for fucking being utterly depressed right now.
I am just so lost.... When I think I got back up on my feet, SHE comes and just... breaks me again. It's like she loves to see me suffer. When it's not her... it's my last ex.
Recently, she came to me at work and threw some... interesting news on me. She claimed she was 4 months pregnant and that it was... mine. The thing is, I haven't been with her in over 7 months and the last time I saw her was 2 months ago at a friend's wedding... What the fuck? Why the hell do you even TRY to pin this on me? Why the hell do you fucking people just throw everything on me and just love to see me suffer? Why can't you just let me be HAPPY for once....
Maybe I should ask myself that question too...
I try, I really do. And I apologize to the few people that really do give a damn about me and care about me... I know you're there for me, it's just hard when you're not physically here...
I wish I could stop this... Because I cannot do this much longer...