Oct 07, 2007 00:14
So, This is something I did a long ass time ago.
I basically choose 8 people in my head.
And write an anonymous paragraph, not saying who they are.
It helps me. Haha
1. My boy, no doubt. You're the first guy I was ever REAL friends with. You know, the kind you can express your true self around. I remember, you had a crush on a girl who thought you were a stalker. And I had a crush on a girl who I thought I was in love with. Long time ago. But yeah, you and I connected as kids. And I'll never forget you, ever.
2. My girl, no doubt. You really have no idea how much you mean to me. You're like the sister I never had, like, entirely. The only girl who seriously understands me. Who'll listen to me and tell me how much of an idiot I am. You live far away, but again, unlike a lot of people, you've gained my trust. We've made connections in the past, and I'm definitely calling you soon you fucking punk.
3. The only friend I truly had in high school. You kind of took me in. You saw the side of me that not many people see. The emotional side. And didn't judge me for it. Though you can sometimes be an idiot, I love you bro. We've been through a lot.
4. I have a feeling you'll always be known as my "ex" best friend. You were my girl for the first two years in high school. I was always there for you, giving you what you needed. I'd listen to you when you were upset. Emotional. Suicidal. And I really did think I loved you too. You told me to die. To overdose. To kill myself. You made me feel like I didn't deserve living because...haha...just because. That's all I can say about it. There was no good reason. But, yeah. You and I both know we'll never be the same again. And for good reason. We still haven't forgiven each other.
5. You don't even realize, babe. You're the first girl who's ever liked me on that next level. Past being a "brother". I could of had you, and I let you slip away because of my own selfish reasons. You're also much too perfect for me. I think we both realize that you're too good for me, and I'd just bring you down. That's the truth. And it's why I'd never let us truly date, at this point.
6. I don't know you. Sometimes you're a complete douche bag. The next you're my best friend. I don't know you. Period. Though, we do smoke a lot of weed, and that probably has a lot to do with it, I just don't know you. We're always together it seems like. Saying our names. DAN CRATE. Yeah. That's us.
7. You and I connect on so many levels. We're both awesomely creative. And we've had deeper conversations than most people have. We're just honest with each other, and it feels good. Though, you have your moments where I definitely get frustrated with you, you and I both know that we'll always have one another to vent to.
8. You intrigue me. More than any girl ever has. You're so creative with your mind. It reminds me of me a lot of the time. Which is why you're so awesome. I didn't know there was anyone else like me. What bothers me is I sometimes feel it's an act. I don't know if I really know you. At all.
Kay, I'm done with that.
I got called a pothead today.
This troubled me.
I don't care, I suppose.
Weed should be legal, as far as I'm concerned.