Pain
What are you to do when you fin out that the most important people in the world think your an ass hole, what im I to do when I cant trust anyone any more? I want to believe that my friends dont lie, but when there are two diff. stories, someone must be lieing. I hate having to worry about things like this. Anyways, I hope to have a good weekend coming up, the vacation next weekend is 3 1/2 days off, it would be nice right before finals to relax and spend time with poeple who are not dramatic. I wis hI could tell My friends how I feel about them, they are the only to guys my age I can realy stand, and in truth, they are the two greatest guys I have ever known. I love spending time with them, I try to make things easier by helping with gas, or orginizing get-to-geathers, but I think that I am not doing a good job. But then again, I dont know for sure, if they do think im a bad person, I hope that they find someone who is nicer, they deserve someone who is conciderate of their feelings, and acts like a brother, because to me, they are me brothers.
However, I told myslef I would talk more about chyral, im afraid to, she speaks of me like I am something common to her, then some times, it sounds like I am very new, I dont know what to think, I know she likes me, but I odnt know how much, I dont know what to do next, I am someone who evern though sometimes acts like I dont have confidence, I do have a very set plan when I meet new people, and that plan is being totally shattered. "I cant even find my own god damn feet" . . . I mean im lost for the first time, I have never been the lost for words IN MY LIFE. I have always had something to say, yes yes yes . . I know, you guys knew that already. :)
But I want to have some fun, even though I am afraid of it. I just cant wait to graduate.
However, I told myslef I would talk more about chyral, im afraid to, she speaks of me like I am something common to her, then some times, it sounds like I am very new, I dont know what to think, I know she likes me, but I odnt know how much, I dont know what to do next, I am someone who evern though sometimes acts like I dont have confidence, I do have a very set plan when I meet new people, and that plan is being totally shattered. "I cant even find my own god damn feet" . . . I mean im lost for the first time, I have never been the lost for words IN MY LIFE. I have always had something to say, yes yes yes . . I know, you guys knew that already. :)
But I want to have some fun, even though I am afraid of it. I just cant wait to graduate.