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I'm free! No more people telling me what I can and can't do, who I can and can't talk to, where I can and can't go, who I can and can't be friends with! I get to be independent! I get to do whatever I want WHENEVER I want! I.Win. No one will be watching my every move any more! I'll have to talk to mom about this when she gets here. I kind of like being able to do what I want. I mean, I'm not a baby, I don't need someone watching me all the time. Maybe if I do good with this, I can prove to her that I am able to take care of myself!
I am a little surprised though. Zeus rarely gives up so easily. I don't have to call him dad anymore, cause he doesn't want to be my dad. Which is fine with me! I don't NEED a dad! Not like I ever saw him all that much anyways. I was kinda hoping we could be like the families on tv, cause on tv, most daughters love their dads. They do fun things together and make a bunch of people say "aawwwwwwwww" at the same time and then they clap. It's kind of weird how that is, but oh well. I don't know him well enough for us to be like that anyways. Tv dads are proud of their daughters for being independent, and mine wanted to cage me up. I think I saw something like that on tv though. This show called...Law and Order...I think. But that dad got in big trouble and they made him go to jail. I don't think jail is a very nice place. I'm not ever going to visit it.
I never would have wanted Zeus to go to jail. Not really. I just...I just wanted to be treated like everyone else! No one ever tells my sisters what to do, or my brothers. Don't I deserve to be treated like that too? Being here has made me realize how lonely my life use to be. I never felt it was lonely, not really. But I didn't know any better. We didn't have tv back there, and I never saw anyone in my family to see that they could do what they wanted.
I think I'm tired of being lonely. And I'm tired of the cold, and I'm tired of the rain,and I'm tired of the death and I'm tired of everything. I'm just so tired. I actually cried the other day because my plant died. My plants never die! I don't know what happened! One day it was so beautiful and the next it was just dead! I had a funeral for it. I got in trouble for that, too. Apparently people don't burn their dead just anywhere anymore.
I'm so tired. And I'm so confused.
But at least I'm independent...right?
I am a little surprised though. Zeus rarely gives up so easily. I don't have to call him dad anymore, cause he doesn't want to be my dad. Which is fine with me! I don't NEED a dad! Not like I ever saw him all that much anyways. I was kinda hoping we could be like the families on tv, cause on tv, most daughters love their dads. They do fun things together and make a bunch of people say "aawwwwwwwww" at the same time and then they clap. It's kind of weird how that is, but oh well. I don't know him well enough for us to be like that anyways. Tv dads are proud of their daughters for being independent, and mine wanted to cage me up. I think I saw something like that on tv though. This show called...Law and Order...I think. But that dad got in big trouble and they made him go to jail. I don't think jail is a very nice place. I'm not ever going to visit it.
I never would have wanted Zeus to go to jail. Not really. I just...I just wanted to be treated like everyone else! No one ever tells my sisters what to do, or my brothers. Don't I deserve to be treated like that too? Being here has made me realize how lonely my life use to be. I never felt it was lonely, not really. But I didn't know any better. We didn't have tv back there, and I never saw anyone in my family to see that they could do what they wanted.
I think I'm tired of being lonely. And I'm tired of the cold, and I'm tired of the rain,and I'm tired of the death and I'm tired of everything. I'm just so tired. I actually cried the other day because my plant died. My plants never die! I don't know what happened! One day it was so beautiful and the next it was just dead! I had a funeral for it. I got in trouble for that, too. Apparently people don't burn their dead just anywhere anymore.
I'm so tired. And I'm so confused.
But at least I'm independent...right?