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i've been really really lazy lately, i haven't done shit. i haven't even unpacked. i'm kinda going through a personal crisis, but then agian when am i not.
right now it's like... hm.. mostly to do with school, photography and shit.
i am either going to drop out of school and set up a darkroom buy a timer and a new camera and try to stop sucking so badly. it's hard to improve cause i don't have a darkroom or a good camera, i may go back to 35mm and see if i can stop sucking, before blowing a few hundred on something i'm not sure i can do anymore.
on the good side of things rose is gonna come over and hang out this weekend, we are gonna sew and shit. i wanna go to get new fabric cause i'm sick of all the stuff i have, even tho i haven't done anything with most of that stuff.
i need to go to the bank and get out a few hundred, i'm gonna set up a weed growing aperatius in my closet. at least for personal use, but if i could get some disposable income that would be great too.
i don't know what to do. i really love photography, but i haven't been any good at it. i don't know if this is one of those thinks i'll never get back, or if i just need to push through. i need to get some coke to luer hott models to my house, and make them sign model release forms while under the influence. i have so many fucking ideas but i don't have anyone to shoot. i wish i was hot so i could use myself like most people can do. meh.
i really want to write lately but nothing comes. meh i think i'm just gonna get drunk and watch tv so maybe i wont feel like crap.
right now it's like... hm.. mostly to do with school, photography and shit.
i am either going to drop out of school and set up a darkroom buy a timer and a new camera and try to stop sucking so badly. it's hard to improve cause i don't have a darkroom or a good camera, i may go back to 35mm and see if i can stop sucking, before blowing a few hundred on something i'm not sure i can do anymore.
on the good side of things rose is gonna come over and hang out this weekend, we are gonna sew and shit. i wanna go to get new fabric cause i'm sick of all the stuff i have, even tho i haven't done anything with most of that stuff.
i need to go to the bank and get out a few hundred, i'm gonna set up a weed growing aperatius in my closet. at least for personal use, but if i could get some disposable income that would be great too.
i don't know what to do. i really love photography, but i haven't been any good at it. i don't know if this is one of those thinks i'll never get back, or if i just need to push through. i need to get some coke to luer hott models to my house, and make them sign model release forms while under the influence. i have so many fucking ideas but i don't have anyone to shoot. i wish i was hot so i could use myself like most people can do. meh.
i really want to write lately but nothing comes. meh i think i'm just gonna get drunk and watch tv so maybe i wont feel like crap.