i guess i'll admit that i'm one of the few (close?) friends who still reads this occasionally. i'm also bothered by how i still dont know how to act towards my ex and vice versa even though its been almost 5 months since our breakup. my theory is that its probably because we built so much trust between each other during our relationship, and we broke up without ever breaking that trust. another thing is that the change was too drastic. before the breakup, not only was she a gf to me, but she was also my best friend who i can share anything with and we had so many things in common. now, its almost like we're total strangers having nothing in common. i think its still weird because we're aware that we know so much about each other and we still care about each other, along with the strong trust we built up, yet we're forced to hide those feelings. i dont know if this is something permanent or something i'm supposed to get over, but i feel like i'm more open with these feelings with my other ex's and thats why i'm still really good friends with them. as for a relationship, i know i'm not ready for a relationship yet just because i'm still scared that i'll have to go through the same thing as i did in my previous breakup and i also dont want my gf to go through the same thing. but when i'm stressing with school, swimming, or life in general, i sometimes wish i had a gf to lean on... as for you, i really hope everything goes well. one thing i want you to know is that you have the ability to change people in positive ways, and if your bf is really the person everybody else say he is, i'm sure he'll naturally change into someone you can trust. after all, i do want you to be truly happy and i wish you luck. -HLH p.s. i really should go to church too...
-HLH
p.s. i really should go to church too...
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