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I FEEL LIKE SHIT!!!!!
Don't worry, you don't have to hear that too much from me, but it definitely applies right now. I just wish sometimes that I could get away from here, really. Today has been horrible.....but, well, it wasn't really horrible until tonight. But that just made it feel like the whole day has been horrible. I hate change...I really do. Not all change, just when it comes to certain things....certain things that would make me hate my life....hate myself....which I do at the moment. I don't even know why....that makes it even worse. Damn, people are probably going to give me shit for this entry for sounding like a "typical live journal entry" or something but I don't really care. I think I want to move away. I talked about it with Nick. Him and I are going to move to Omaha. I don't know why Omaha but hey, it's not here. ARRRFGGH!! I think holding on is what makes it so painful. It's hard not to though. To add to my misery, I have an essay in history to write. I know absolutely nothing about the topic. I think I might just try and do it all tomorrow, that might work.
"I don't want to start over again
I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Somedays I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now.."