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So i just got back from lunch and i had some yummy pizza from ms. miller and we talked about some fundraisers that our class can do for some $ and let me tell ya...we got some good ideas. and then we talked about it and kara is gonna run for president again im gonna run for vice president, leah is gonna run for secretary and we want my loverface chelsey to run for treasurer. it will be wonderful if it all works out that way cuz we seriously got plans for our class and i would hate for them not to be able to come threw because one of us dont make it. and then tonight i for sure am going to go get my softball stuff so im excitd but then im upset cuz next week tuesday is the j.v.'s first game and it is home and everything but i schedualed my drivers test for that day and we already payed so i cant skip it so i might have to skip the game (tear drop) but im gonna try really hard to move my test to like wednesday or something so i can do both!!! woop woop. and then ya... lol me and susan talked today about things that bother us and i was seriously almost in tears cuz im really upset with things right now and ugh i just want to go to sleep(have some really good dreams) and never wake up again, because at this point every morning i wake up and i almost start crying because i hate going to school because of all the drama that happens here and i just want it all to end... i really consider things that i shouldnt because i have a good life and i shouldnt want it to end but i swear im just so depressed and i dont know if it will ever end... i have my good days when im able to act like things are ok... but they arnt and i really just wish i had people to talk to that would realize the way i am and the stuff that goes on my life, and that they are really just adding to how upset i am by getting mad over things that arnt even worth it if i am really that good of a friend to them, if people are ur friends dont u try to forgive them??? well i try to and i just keep getting hurt because the poeple that are supposed to care about me the most are letting their own fuds get in the way of someone else being happy or having other friends (even if they dont like those friends) because honestly im not trying to force anyone to hang out or talk to anyone they dont want to hang out with or talk to... im not trying to tell u who ur friends should be, so i dont get why people try to tell me who mine should be...?... and i just dont get wat i did to deserve it.... but o well it is wat it is and i cant do anything to stop it i guess. so im out ... PEACE~sam