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So besides going into a parnoia schizophrenic state of mind for a while after drugs, i personally believe I am doing better nowadays. The shocking part. No medication or anti-depressents whatsoever. I had days afterwards of major enlightenment which i believe is because of how sensitive my body was once again to things. I'm really anti social nowadays and it scares me to death that maybe i'll be closed mouthed my entire life but it'll pass right? I love you god, thanks for a second chance even if i am fucking up so far.