House hunt
I want this house we're looking at tomorrow so bad. What if she doesnt like us? What if she sees that Im just a floozy? Ayyyyiieee. I had all these anxious dreams last nite about it. I also have a shitload of work to do and am kinda overwhelmed. Im also wiped out from this past weekend which was confusing as hell and also a definately floozy-filled time. Im exhausted. confused, and nervous. my tummy is filled with snakes. Oh man. I'm also still missing the thrill. Empty hookups are getting pretty damn boring, I lose interest before I even say hello. Why should I even try anything anymore? It never even goes anywhere. I should just give up. I just need to even have a crush again, just to feel something. Im numb. I think I've subconsciously blocked myself from getting attatched since the last few times have been such disasters. I need to go home and see all the beach boys, and fall in love with them all over again. What on earth is wrong with me?