Um, Just a Little Scary
I've been reading Russ's (thetubanator) journal. And I want my mommy.
Just last night I personally reasserted to myself that I would continue studying music in graduate school, whatever that might take from me. Problem is, I read his experience and I just shrivel. Is it worth it? What am I even doing? Music is my life, right, but why would I put myself through that? Would it really help? Argh, what am I thinking? If Russ is having this much trouble, what will become of me? I'll shrivel up and die, that's what. I'd feel like more of an idiot than I already do. What's the point?
Life is so scary right now. I have no money, no job, no prospect for the next five years, really. I feel all hollow.
Just last night I personally reasserted to myself that I would continue studying music in graduate school, whatever that might take from me. Problem is, I read his experience and I just shrivel. Is it worth it? What am I even doing? Music is my life, right, but why would I put myself through that? Would it really help? Argh, what am I thinking? If Russ is having this much trouble, what will become of me? I'll shrivel up and die, that's what. I'd feel like more of an idiot than I already do. What's the point?
Life is so scary right now. I have no money, no job, no prospect for the next five years, really. I feel all hollow.