Calm, at peace, passive, calm, at peace, passive...
Ahh, I'm so nervous about going back to college tomorrow... I hadn't called in to my tutors, and even though they all know what's going on with me and that I am still very wobbly in it all, I'm still nervous. I don't think they'll shout or anything, and let's face it, there really isn't much they can do to me, but I'm still quite scared. I don't like having people angry at me... But what was I supposed to say if I called? "Sorry, I'm being pathetic and cowardly"? And I really don't want to give names, although I know they'll ask. But, well, it's not bullying, not yet.
Ah! No. I'm not thinking all this - I'll only end up talking myself out of going in tomorrow, and that is Not Allowed.
It will be fine. It WILL.
I, umm, I bought the second Twilight book today. It was cheap! The writing still makes me wince in places... And this one, somehow, isn't quite as romantic - which rather defeated the object, for me, as that's why I like the first one. I can't help it. My tastes are strange - on the one hand, I love NGEva, Gundam Wing and Snatch, on the other I love shoujo manga and Georgette Heyer novels. Odd. Very odd. XD
I'm sorry, guys, but actually I need to get sorted out for tomorrow, so I'll have to check out your journals and everything tomorrow lunchtime or evening... I'm sorry. I hope you're all healthy and happy... Much love to all of you!
Ah! No. I'm not thinking all this - I'll only end up talking myself out of going in tomorrow, and that is Not Allowed.
It will be fine. It WILL.
I, umm, I bought the second Twilight book today. It was cheap! The writing still makes me wince in places... And this one, somehow, isn't quite as romantic - which rather defeated the object, for me, as that's why I like the first one. I can't help it. My tastes are strange - on the one hand, I love NGEva, Gundam Wing and Snatch, on the other I love shoujo manga and Georgette Heyer novels. Odd. Very odd. XD
I'm sorry, guys, but actually I need to get sorted out for tomorrow, so I'll have to check out your journals and everything tomorrow lunchtime or evening... I'm sorry. I hope you're all healthy and happy... Much love to all of you!