In a month I leave for Bangkok.

[kolkata_prema]

I'm getting really nervous about the trip. Reality is starting to set in: I've never been out of North America, and when I have traveled, it's either been with my family, a friend's family, or a large group of people in an organized group. I've never had any sort of "breaking away" experience like this before, and it's got me really afraid. I'm leaving so many people and things that I love behind in the States, and I don't know how to handle that. How many personal relationships will be significantly changed as a result of me going away? Will I have a panic attack when I realize I'm completely lost in an unfamiliar city?

I love challenges, but sometimes challenges are just too nerve-wracking for me to handle. I'm feeling that pressure tonight.