out of the wilderness
This is an update of myself in liberty from what has been holding onto me for a year plus. You could call it the season of wilderness, where I was far from God and never really having fruitful attempts at going back to Him. Maybe there were a few, but very short-lived. About a few days or so? And I'm back in the rut. But now, I can say that through the death of Jesus on the cross, I've been freed, redeemed from the bondage of sin that I had. I praise Him for His grace and power that enables and sets free the captives!
These days I've been truly learning a lot from God. Much like the time where I was really close to Him, my spiritual growth would speed up like never before. Things have been moving so fast. He's been teaching me on being satisfied in Him, in knowing His love for me, in how He views beauty and not through the world's eyes, and maturing into someone who extends grace and not law. There's just so much I've been absorbing and learning to savour that it's a bit tough for me to really put everything into words, haha. But this is needful because it'll serve as a good reminder when I look back at my posts. Basically the sole reason why I still maintain this journal. ^^
As I step into the next season of life, passed college and into the work society (I JUST got to know I passed everything, praise God!), I can see God's hands over how He has orchestrated everything, including how I got my job, and the things that lead to it. Will talk more on this later. As I've just got to know my results, and am now officially a graduate (with the exception of the convocation), the time of my days in college will need more reflections, because I did.not.enjoy my time in college. I could have missed out on some things God wanted me to learn. Maybe this will be a topic for another post entirely.
About the job, it seems like the ideal workplace I would want to be in. Most importantly for me, I need some time off from work. On the weekends, or perhaps at night. I can't live breathing, eating and sleeping my career. I'm just not that type of person. Much of the reason for this need came from my passion that's been slowly coming back: the passion to worship God. Without it, I'm passionless, not seeing any reason in anything other than the things of God. But of course, I'm still in the world, and those who do not work can't feed themselves. There are still things that I need to go through in order to maintain this body until I reach my permanent home. But I digress, haha. Getting back, the desire is coming back to me to worship God, and to bring others into His presence. For this to be a smoother experience for myself and the others, I will need to hone certain skills, and I have decided to go first with the guitar, followed by the piano. These need time, that's why some break from work is the best. I personally can't take working hard for a year or two non-stop. Even a year is very precious. And I'm saying this for myself, not as a law to be passed on to others.
Before I got the job too, there were many blessings that came. Me getting freelance jobs without asking around when I needed some money. Even the job I got practically landed on my lap without me sending out my resume. Things just worked out for the better even when I didn't pray to God for them. Not because I didn't want to share my thoughts with God, but maybe in my heart, I knew things would just happen, and had faith in Him. Simple faith moves God. However, this is a tricky thing when it comes to the things I really desire, haha. And this is that season of putting faith in God for the bigger things.
He is wonderful and worthy of our affections.
He is faithful, never leaving us alone without His guidance.
Truly, the only One who is worth it all.
These days I've been truly learning a lot from God. Much like the time where I was really close to Him, my spiritual growth would speed up like never before. Things have been moving so fast. He's been teaching me on being satisfied in Him, in knowing His love for me, in how He views beauty and not through the world's eyes, and maturing into someone who extends grace and not law. There's just so much I've been absorbing and learning to savour that it's a bit tough for me to really put everything into words, haha. But this is needful because it'll serve as a good reminder when I look back at my posts. Basically the sole reason why I still maintain this journal. ^^
As I step into the next season of life, passed college and into the work society (I JUST got to know I passed everything, praise God!), I can see God's hands over how He has orchestrated everything, including how I got my job, and the things that lead to it. Will talk more on this later. As I've just got to know my results, and am now officially a graduate (with the exception of the convocation), the time of my days in college will need more reflections, because I did.not.enjoy my time in college. I could have missed out on some things God wanted me to learn. Maybe this will be a topic for another post entirely.
About the job, it seems like the ideal workplace I would want to be in. Most importantly for me, I need some time off from work. On the weekends, or perhaps at night. I can't live breathing, eating and sleeping my career. I'm just not that type of person. Much of the reason for this need came from my passion that's been slowly coming back: the passion to worship God. Without it, I'm passionless, not seeing any reason in anything other than the things of God. But of course, I'm still in the world, and those who do not work can't feed themselves. There are still things that I need to go through in order to maintain this body until I reach my permanent home. But I digress, haha. Getting back, the desire is coming back to me to worship God, and to bring others into His presence. For this to be a smoother experience for myself and the others, I will need to hone certain skills, and I have decided to go first with the guitar, followed by the piano. These need time, that's why some break from work is the best. I personally can't take working hard for a year or two non-stop. Even a year is very precious. And I'm saying this for myself, not as a law to be passed on to others.
Before I got the job too, there were many blessings that came. Me getting freelance jobs without asking around when I needed some money. Even the job I got practically landed on my lap without me sending out my resume. Things just worked out for the better even when I didn't pray to God for them. Not because I didn't want to share my thoughts with God, but maybe in my heart, I knew things would just happen, and had faith in Him. Simple faith moves God. However, this is a tricky thing when it comes to the things I really desire, haha. And this is that season of putting faith in God for the bigger things.
He is wonderful and worthy of our affections.
He is faithful, never leaving us alone without His guidance.
Truly, the only One who is worth it all.