2012
2012 was something like an experimentation year. A lot of changes happened, and also a lot of new experiences. As I've mentioned in a post, I changed church and also my major in college. They were really really big decisions that happened consecutively. I was not afraid, but rather excited for them. Maybe I am the type who likes changes rather than routines? *shrugs*
2012 was also a year of hurts. In the first few months, it was like getting hit by a machine gun over and over again, because things I looked forward to and had hoped for a better development, took a 180 degree turn for the worst. They also happened consecutively, and it was a tough time for me because life became dull and later, something I feared. Looking back, I should have handled it better because I had God, but I didn't look to Him until I realised that things cannot remain the way they were. So I decided to stop being angry at Him and took His hand that pulled me out. I think it was also at the time when my eyes were opened to see that the uncomfortable feeling I've been having towards my Illustration course was caused by the major not being suitable for me.
Things may already be changing for the good, I think. My first semester in the Advertising & Graphic Design course was quite hectic and tiring (to a scary degree), but it was not something I hated. Though it was also not something I loved, I had the desire to work hard for my assignments, which was a motivation that was lacking in me towards my previous course. Also like my current church quite a lot. :) We've been growing as a church, and new things are beginning to happen. Just wish I had attended more of their Friday meetings. Will try to make time to attend week by week this year. >
2012 was also a year of hurts. In the first few months, it was like getting hit by a machine gun over and over again, because things I looked forward to and had hoped for a better development, took a 180 degree turn for the worst. They also happened consecutively, and it was a tough time for me because life became dull and later, something I feared. Looking back, I should have handled it better because I had God, but I didn't look to Him until I realised that things cannot remain the way they were. So I decided to stop being angry at Him and took His hand that pulled me out. I think it was also at the time when my eyes were opened to see that the uncomfortable feeling I've been having towards my Illustration course was caused by the major not being suitable for me.
Things may already be changing for the good, I think. My first semester in the Advertising & Graphic Design course was quite hectic and tiring (to a scary degree), but it was not something I hated. Though it was also not something I loved, I had the desire to work hard for my assignments, which was a motivation that was lacking in me towards my previous course. Also like my current church quite a lot. :) We've been growing as a church, and new things are beginning to happen. Just wish I had attended more of their Friday meetings. Will try to make time to attend week by week this year. >